October 2, 2013

I haven’t written here in two months!  It’s not because I haven’t had a lot to say – I’ve had a TON to say! But I’ve been so busy with work stuff, and it’s been hard to write about the pregnancy when we aren’t telling anyone yet.  We finally told our families and let them know we are Pregnant last Friday – and really – last Friday this pregnancy became real!

Last Friday, at 15 weeks and 2 days, we went to our doctor’s appointment and had a super short ultra sound just to see the heartbeat. I was really disappointed because I was hoping at this appointment we would actually see a baby, or something that LOOKS like a baby, and we would tell our families that evening and I wanted to have a picture of an actual baby to show them. Travis could tell I was disappointed and suggested we look into Fetal Fotos.  I was hesitant but I’m not sure why. We decided that if they could tell us the gender, we would make an appointment. 

I called Fetal Fotos and they said at 15 weeks they can tell Gender - so I made an appointment for that afternoon! Travis and I went in and picked the $79 package which included a 2D ultrasound with printed pictures, a CD of pictures and a DVD of the ultrasound complete with musical accompaniment. Travis and I sat in the room and relaxed and the ultrasound took her time to look at our little one. I was amazed at how clear the pictures were! It looked like a baby! She showed us the feet, the face, the hands, and then the gender reveal - she showed us a tiny little weenie. We are having a boy! I started to cry when she told and showed us. I am SO excited! Travis and I were SO excited we could barely stand it! We left Fetal Fotos all smiles - best $79 spent EVER!

August 7, 2013

Yesterday I had my first appointment at the Maternal Fetal Medicine clinic at IMC. I was officially 7w6d yesterday and got to see another picture of our little one. The second sac was still there, unfortunately, there was nothing in it so – no twins for us. But that’s okay – I think I knew there was only one in there so I wasn’t too surprised, but I was still a little bummed. In any case, there is one healthy baby with a heartbeat of 160. 

The ultrasound tech was SO quick! It was insane!  It was my first abdominal ultrasound so far, and it was wonderful!  I seriously was so surprised at how quickly it went by. Then we met with one of the other doctors because Dr. Porter was out of the office for the week. She seemed pleasant enough… not super friendly, but whatever.

Afterward, I went to the lab and did a urine test and a blood test. While I was waiting for my blood test – one of Travis’ clients that works for IMC walked by us and stopped to say hello.  It’s a little hard to avoid the “are you pregnant?” question when you are in the women’s center – on the maternity floor – at the lab…  So, she knows.

We are so excited that there is at least one baby in there with a really strong heartbeat! I haven’t been feeling horrible – but I certainly have my moments. Aside from random bouts of nausea, and really painful boobs, everything else seems to be good. After our appointment we went to Harmons, and the smell of the butchers area with the fish and raw meat – made me so sick! I seriously, almost barfed multiple times, in the middle of Harmons!

Poor Travis is such a good sport and gave me the car keys to go sit in the car while he finished the shopping. I just went to the produce section to pick out fruit and then the checkout stand. I survived… barely!

Aside from baby stuff – I turned 32 today… I don’t feel too old – but I am really happy that I’m at least expecting our first child at 32… Who knew this year would be so great for us!

July 31, 2013

Yesterday I had another ultrasound. It’s at 6 weeks and 6 days – and there are still TWO sacs!  The big one has an actual baby in it… the smaller one now has a yolk sac but it’s sitting so far back in my pelvis that the ultrasound wand couldn’t get a good view of it – so there may be a baby in there, there may not be. But it’s getting bigger and progressing.  Dr. Heiner said we still have a 15% chance of having twins I guess. We will just watch it I guess.

As for the other one – with the baby… we got to see the heartbeat - and we got to hear it!  I’m not going to lie, as I was holding Travis’ hand and we heard the heartbeat, I started to cry a little. It was surreal!  I’ve never experienced something so amazing before in my life! There was a tiny flutter – and a heartbeat of 123 bpm. It was amazing!

I have a subchronic hematoma or something (bleeding) around the sac of the bigger baby. The doctor said it’s 20% of the size of the sac, so it’s nothing to be super worried about – but there is a potential for bleeding. I don’t know why doctors tell you things and then say, oh, but you shouldn’t be worried about it. Seriously? How can I not be worried about it?! I guess we don’t have to worry unless it grows to be 50% of the size of the sac – then I guess we have to worry about it.

The doctor gave me a little paper that says when to stop taking the Crinone and the Metformin. I just have to make an appointment with Dr. Porter, the maternal fetal medicine specialist that we will see throughout this pregnancy.  I’m really hoping there’s nothing wrong and that the smaller sac continues to grow and we can find a baby in there next time!!!

Until then, I try and get sleep at night - although I've got insomnia right now - and do everything else that i need to... while keeping it a secret. The end of September can't get here quick enough! Then at least we will be out of the first trimester, and can actually tell our families and friends.

July 23, 2013

Yesterday we had our first ultrasound.  I was SO nervous because I just wanted to make sure there was SOMETHING in there. For some reason I was really worried about having there be nothing and really I just wanted to be pregnant so bad that I had given myself symptoms and stuff.  But, when we looked for a gestational sac (since that’s all you would see at 5 weeks 5 days) – we found one!  Actually, we found TWO!  

One measured at 5 weeks and 3 days, so it was looking pretty good. I figured that was pretty accurate since we were two days late on the retrieval and implant (late for what they wanted). The other sac was rather small and Dr. Heiner didn’t bother measuring it or really looking at it.  He said for right now, I am pregnant with twins – however, the one may be absorbed because it’s so small and may not grow – leaving me with only one.  

My heart was kind of crushed. Sure, twins were kind of a long shot – only a 10-20% chance, IF we got pregnant. But there were 2 sacs there… which means there are potentially two babies.  I know it’s a long shot – but I’m really hoping they both stick still!  Maybe the other one just took a little longer to implant.  That’s what I’m hoping is the case anyway. 

Dr. Heiner looked for a heart beat in the big sac, and couldn’t find it yet. He said that was normal since it’s still really early – and told me to come back next week for another ultrasound. He said next week he would give me pictures as well since there was nothing really to see this time. 

I’m so excited to be pregnant! It’s something we have been waiting for and wanting for over four years! It’s kind of surreal that it’s actually happening you know?!  I told Travis, if I start to complain about any of the symptoms to tell me to shut up because I wanted this. I’m willing to deal with waking up a million times in the night to get comfortable (I’m a stomach sleeper so trying to sleep in different ways is really uncomfortable), being awesomely bloated, crampy, having seriously sore boobs, and some nausea. It is a nice reminder that we actually did it! 

I still want to tell everyone - but we are still keeping it pretty darn quiet. People have asked how things are going and we just smile and say things are fine. They are fine. They're better than fine really - but I don't want to give it away.

July 18, 2013

It’s been several days since I last blogged – but things have been really good. I have my early OB appointment scheduled for Monday the 22^nd. At that time I’ll have an Ultrasound – although there will not be a heartbeat yet – there will be a gestational sac. I guess that’s what we are looking for although I’m not exactly sure. But at that appointment, I will know how long to take the Crinone for (I will probably be taking it until I am between 10-11 weeks pregnant), and then figure out when to call Dr. Porter, although I’ll need to see him sooner rather than later since I only have 22 days of my blood thinner left.  

I haven’t had too many symptoms aside from extremely sore boobs, being exhausted, and some serious heartburn! Oh, and some weird cramping/stabbing pains pretty similar to cramps. I downloaded 4 pregnancy apps to see what they say each day – and have done some research about the cramps and stabby pain and saw that it is likely due to the fact that my Uterus is already growing. So crazy! Two of them have different opinions regarding the size of my baby at this point – one says the size of an apple or orange seed. The other says the size of a sweet pea.  It’s interesting that they have differing opinions even with the same information. Oh well. In any case, I’m extremely excited and nervous for this whole experience! 

We have some friends who know we were doing IVF. We are just telling them we aren’t ready to talk about the experience yet. It’s hard though because I really want to tell everyone because I’m so excited!