Saturday, April 5, 2014

Update

It's been a while I know! I didn't post much during my third trimester because I was pretty exhausted and trying to work super hard to get everything ready for our new arrival. There was also a lot of drama in my personal life and I wanted to ignore it and focus on being healthy and pregnant instead of the stresses.

My last trimester was also pretty challenging - I had gestational diabetes that was nearly impossible to control with diet and exercise and I ended up on medication during the day and injectable insulin at night. Additionally, my blood pressure went up as well. I had weekly appointments and twice weekly non-stress tests. We were worried he would be a huge baby!  

Lincoln came on March 5th and he's perfect! It has been a month and I'm so in love with him! I hate the thought of going back to work but I have no choice. We need the insurance that I carry, especially now that we have a little boy. He has made me happier than I ever thought possible and I didn't know I could love someone so much. I love Travis so much - who knew I would love him even more every time I see him snuggle, change, feed, or kiss our son. It's beyond anything I ever imagined!

I feel so different now that I'm a mom... It's amazing! But how could you not fall in love with this little face 

Friday, January 10, 2014

30 weeks and counting...

I can't believe I am 30 weeks pregnant. It's insane!  Time has seriously been flying! I can't wait to meet this little guy!

Let me rephrase - I can wait to meet him. I don't want him to come any earlier than he needs to - but that may be sooner than i expected. I was diagnosed with Gestational Diabetes at the beginning of December. I've been working on controlling my blood sugar by watching my diet and exercising. Unfortunately, despite my efforts, I was put on Metformin at night. No big deal - I used metformin when we were trying to get pregnant. I'm familiar with the ugly side effects but if it means the baby will be healthy - I'll do it.  At the beginning of my 30 week appointment this week, my numbers were reviewed and for some reason, my fasting number is always high. I can't get it into normal range no matter what I do. So, the doctor put me on a second dose of metformin in the mornings - and then very casually said, "we'll probably be putting you on insulin at your next appointment - but try to follow the diet and we will see what happens."  WHAT?!

My blood sugar won't go down, my blood pressure keeps going up - they are watching my bp really closely as it's flirting with high levels.Then the doctor said, "you know, with these problems you are at risk of having a stillborn. Let's have you start weekly non-stress tests. If you pass the test, it means you have less than a 1 in 10,000 chance of having a stillborn that week."  WHAT?!


Friday, December 20, 2013

Welcome to the Third Trimester

It's crazy to believe I'm finally in the third trimester.... 7th month... just a few weeks to go.

This morning our nursery furniture was delivered - I can't wait to see it! We bought a crib, a dresser, and a custom glider/recliner. I can't wait to see it all!  It's getting so real now!

I can feel him move all day long now, and his kicks and punches are starting to actually move my belly. Travis saw it for the first time last night and was surprised at the movement. It's pretty crazy to see - but exciting too.

Christmas is in less than a week, and I bought a couple of small baby things for Travis for his stocking  - and a special gift from the baby (I won't spoil the surprises just in case he looks at this blog - which is highly unlikely). I'm excited for Christmas to come... and excited for it to go as well. I'm just excited for this little guy to make his entrance into the world - and it seems like Christmas is one more milestone to pass in this pregnancy.

I found out two weeks ago that I have gestational diabetes - bleh. I can handle it for the most part with diet and exercise, but my morning fasting blood sugar is crazy high every morning. So, we will see what the doctor says on Monday.

We are still taking our birthing class and just practiced the different labor positions.  I am convinced they don't tell you the gross details of birth and positioning and pain and stuff so you don't second guess yourself in wanting to have a child. Of course I still want him, and I still want to go natural - but oh dang!

I'm excited - but I'm tired now. I had so much energy in the second trimester it was awesome. Now? Not so much... I just want to sleep all the time! The problem is that I don't sleep well at night. I wake up to go to the bathroom and then I'm awake for a couple of hours. Or I have heartburn and am awake for a few hours. Or the baby thinks it's time to play and I can't fall back asleep with him using my insides as a punching bag.

But I'll take it all - because in three short months he will be here! I can't wait!

Monday, November 25, 2013

24 weeks

In about 6 hours, I will be officially 24 weeks along. It's amazing how quickly the time has gone - and at the same time, it seems like it is forever until our little boy is born.

I am currently taking a Bradley Method Birthing Class, along with Prenatal Water Aerobics - and it has allowed me to become friends with other pregnant ladies. It's weird how I am always the oldest person having their first child - all of the other ladies my age are having their 3rd, or 5th even. But I feel blessed none the less.

The past month has been really hard on me - family drama - work stress - the pregnancy... I feel like a gigantic baby! I've been trying really hard not to complain because I don't want to be "that" lady. I wanted to get pregnant - so much so that it cost us an arm and a leg to try twice. I want to have a family. I can't imagine a better feeling than the kicking I am feeling regularly - especially if I eat a snickers bar! But I'm in pain... Our little guy is just over 1.3 lbs. and growing rapidly.  His legs are measuring a week and a half to two weeks ahead of his due date, with his little waist and head measuring a week under his due date (sounds like our little guy will have Travis' figure - thank goodness!).  But his little head is sitting right on my lady parts, and pushes and presses all day long!

As painful as it is - as slow as I walk now - and even though I waddle like a duck... I will be forever grateful for this opportunity.  I'm so happy that I'm able to carry this little boy - even if it's a pain (literally). I can't wait until the day I meet him! Well... I can wait about 15 weeks longer at least :)

Saturday, October 19, 2013

I think...

...I may have just felt movement for the first time! I can't be entirely sure because I've never felt it before - but I've never felt this before. 

I spent the morning painting his bedroom and laid down afterward to take a breather because my belly was starting to hurt - when all of a sudden I felt three little flicks on the left side of my belly. It surprised me because I have never had that feeling before. It has happened a few times since then as well! 

I'm pretty positive it's him and maybe he's telling me to stop squishing him while I paint. I'm so excited!!!!

Friday, October 18, 2013

4 1/2 months...



I am 18 weeks and 2 days pregnant. I still haven’t felt my little man move – at least not that I know of anyway. But I’m so blissfully happy.  Travis and I picked out bedding for the nursery on Wednesday night. We are getting new carpet in the entire upstairs installed a week from today, so we decided if we wanted to paint the nursery, we should probably do it this weekend. So, last night, we went to Buy Buy Baby and bought a piece of the bedding and off we went to Home Depot to buy paint. We decided to do light grey walls, a dark grey accent wall, and white trimming. With our 4 gallons of paint – off we went to attempt our nursery!  Last night we washed the walls, took off all of the outlets, etc. Taped the accent wall, and painted it. This morning we woke up early to do a second coat on our accent wall. It looks amazing!  It’s a little darker than it looked on the swatch and on the paint can – but I really like it!  I’m getting so excited!

Next Wednesday, at 19 weeks, we are having our BIG ultrasound.  We will get to see our little guy, his brain, his heart, and everything else. I can’t wait! I’m not having a difficult pregnancy so sometimes it’s hard to “feel” pregnant. I try to talk to him, and get him to move around – but he doesn’t listen to me yet. I told Travis he would probably be like our furry kids, and only listen to Travis. I’m sure he’s moving around in there – I just wish I could feel it already. I’ve been told it’s normal not to feel him yet – maybe he needs karate lessons or something so he can kick harder. J  I’m just being impatient I know. I’ll relax and wait, because as soon as he starts kicking and I can feel it – I’m sure he won’t stop!

Travis has been so sweet throughout this pregnancy – not that I expected anything different. But while we watch tv he will put his hand on my belly and rub it a little. He is actively trying to come up with names for our little one – and he made me make our first purchase last week. I’ve been stressing about it because it is a little overwhelming. So, last week when we went out looking specifically for cribs, we saw a pack n play that we thought was pretty cool, although for a pack n play it was kind of expensive. It has the little newborn bassinet on the top, a little changing table on top, AND a removable bassinet with a stand. I thought it was awesome because we want the baby in a bassinet by our bed for the first little bit, so this seemed perfect. We looked at other ones that were cheaper and we just really liked the removable bassinet – so we decided that was the one we wanted. So Travis said we should just buy it right now. I was kind of surprised because I hadn’t planned on buying anything at all that day. I had some serious anxiety while this was happening because it seems like such a big commitment, and I was kind of scared. (yes, I’m a baby) But, we bought it, and it’s in the box in our downstairs living room (where everything but the bassinet stand will be) – and I’m sure we will put it together sometime soon.  

I’m so excited – I have so many emotions and feelings around this experience – I don’t really know how to explain it, but I really couldn’t be any happier!

On another note - I just decided to publish all of my previous posts from this second IVF attempt - you don't have to read it if you don't want to - but I wanted to have it here so I can have it for myself. 

October 3, 2013



When we left Fetal Fotos we went straight home because it was the date we would be telling our parents that we are pregnant!  We went home and I loaded my computer up with the pictures, admired them for a bit, and then we called Travis’ parents. We talked about their vacation for a while and then told them we had taken Family Pictures a couple of weeks before, and wanted to send them a few so they could choose one for us to give them for their home. We sent them two family pictures, then pictures of the dogs with the signs we had made – one for Baxter that says, “Baby C” Guard Dog – Duty begins March 2014, and one for Lucy that says, “Official” Baby Toy Tester – Effective March 2014.



His parents looked at the pictures of the dogs and then his mother said “Oh, Oh, Oh, are you trying to tell us something? Are you guys pregnant?”  We told them yes, and they were SO excited!  We sent them a little profile pic of the baby, and then asked if they wanted to know the gender – Bob said No, and Annette said Yes.  I sent a weenie shot and his mom opened it and Bob decided he did want to know – they looked at the picture and Bob said, “that looks like a vagina to me” and Annette said, “Bob – it says, I’m a Boy right there!”  They were SO excited we are having a boy!  They congratulated us and we asked them not to tell anyone until the following day after we could tell the rest of our families. 

After talking to them for a few more minutes, Travis and I headed to Market Street Grill for dinner with my parents – to celebrate my dad’s birthday. We sat down, chatted for a few minutes, ordered our food, and then asked if they wanted to see the family pictures we had taken, and see if they wanted any prints. We gave each of them one family picture, and one puppy picture. My mom looked at the family picture and said she loved it and definitely wanted a print, and then looked at the picture of Lucy. Then she put the pictures down and looked at me, and then picked up the pictures again and looked at the picture of Lucy – then looked at me – and said, “really?”  I said, “Yes” and she jumped out of her seat and hugged me because she was so excited.  My poor dad, was stuck on the “Baby C” part of Baxters because he couldn’t figure it out – “we already have a baby c with conner” was his thought. That made sense – but we couldn’t fit “Baby Cornett” along with all the other writing on the sign – so Baby C it was. They were very excited and had figured we weren’t pregnant because we didn’t say anything about doing IVF.  

Later that evening, I sent a text message to my siblings (classy I know) – a picture of me holding up the grey little outfit I had bought to tell Travis, and wrote “I guess Abstinence is NOT key” and sent it to them. I knew they would think it was funny because Spencer tells everyone that Abstinence is Key because he doesn’t want to think of any of us having sex. Brian immediately called me and we talked for a few, and then I skyped the boys to tell them. I showed them a picture of the ultrasound and asked if they knew what it was, Austin said, “it’s a picture of Baby Will.”  I told him he had pictures like that of baby will, but it was a picture of the baby in my belly – he was So excited! He yelled to his mom “Mom, Jenny’s having a cousin!” Sarah asked if it was a boy or girl, and I let her know a Boy.  They’re very excited too.  Melissa called me from the BYU game and was super excited – and Shayla and Spencer texted me and they’re excited as well!

The next day, we told Travis’ sister Sara while at dinner at Red Robin.  Travis asked little Billy how he’s liked watching our “kids” – and he said great. Travis asked if it was easy or hard, and Billy said easy. Then he asked if he would still be willing to watch them if we added a “third” and he said yes, Sara asked if we were getting another dog and we said No. They asked if we were getting a cat, a dog, and even a monkey- before they guessed it was a real kid. They seem pretty excited as well.
For some reason I was really nervous about telling our families. I don’t know why… maybe because it’s just such a big deal and I was SO excited about it that I thought their excitement wouldn’t match mine?  In any case, everyone was excited and we were so happy!