Exactly What I Needed...

But not necessarily in the form I would have liked. I have been job hunting for a while now - looking now and then... applying for jobs here and there. I've been serious about getting a new job - but I hadn't been seriously looking and applying. Well, Sunday night I got an email that changed all of that. I decided that I don't get paid enough to be treated like crap. I don't get paid enough to deal with clients like this. And I certainly don't get paid enough to be looked down on and scolded for doing my job the best way that I know how. That email was absolutely rude and uncalled for. But - it gave me the kick in the pants that I needed right about now. I am looking for a new job NOW. Not just looking - I will be calling places, sending emails, following up, etc. SO - if anyone knows of a place that is hiring a CSW - let me know - I am ready for a change!

Story of my Life...

Stress... Yep, it is the story of my life! For some reason - I feel overly stressed recently! I am more emotional than ever! I get angry at the littlest things... It is so unlike me! Yet, I feel like it defines me right now. In nearly every aspect of my life - I am experiencing stress! It is wearing on me emotionally and physically and I feel like I have no control! I'm trying to find a new job - I still love my current job, but I am not able to get out of it what I want anymore. I want to finish my clinical hours for my license - and I can't do that at my current job. Unfortunately, I'm having a hard time finding a job - which is stressing me out! At my current job - my clients are going crazy, which is stressing me out! I feel like I'm doing things to help OTHER people have an easier job (or keep their job) and it's pretty overwhelming - and overly demanding at times! I'm trying to decide if I should go back to school - and that's stressing me out! My husband talked to me about our finances the other day and that ALWAYS stresses me out! It doesn't matter how much or how little money we have, it stresses me out. Currently, we are on the little side and his reaction to our financial situation stresses me out too! We have been trying to get pregnant, well, since we got married (don't judge us - we are getting old)... and can't do it on our own. We need to see someone - but that is kind of overwhelming and stressful too and I just have NO idea where to start. Besides, all of that will cost money - and well, it's not like we have an excess of that lying around. Do you see a pattern here?! I can't really handle this stress... I just don't know how to get rid of it! Until then, I live with headaches, heartburn, tension, stress, and anxiety... Aaah... the life!

# 25 - Reunite with an Old Friend (or two)

I accomplished this goal! Yes! It feels SO good to cross one thing off of my list already!

Last Saturday (September 11th) I had a fantastic dinner with two of my mission companions. How is this reuniting with an old friend??? Well, we haven't seen each other - or talked really - since we all went home about 6 years ago...

It was wonderful! We had dinner (mexican of course), ice cream, and played Rock Band 2 for hours! It was SO much fun! Gowans and Webster - I hope to see you again soon!

30 before 30

I've decided since I'm turning the big 3-0 next year, that I should make a list of things I'd like to do before I'm thirty... Here goes nothing (and in no particular order)...

1. Plant flowers in my front flower bed
2. Read 30 #1 New York Times Bestsellers
3. Go on a REAL vacation with my husband - or at least have one solidly planned(St. George does NOT count)
4. Organize my scrapbook stuff - more of a chore than it sounds
5. Use my Clinical License
6. Start a Family (I feel like i'm setting myself up to fail here...)
7. Lose an undisclosed but very specific amount of weight
8. Explore new interests
9. Re-decorate (or at least re-paint) one room in my house
10. Take more pictures
11. Actually USE some of my scrapbook stuff
12. Learn to De-Stress my life
13. Do something Physically Adventurous/Difficult
14. Decrease my debt - Increase my savings (student loans why must you haunt me)
15. Clean out my Car - and keep it clean for a week! (TRUNK INCLUDED)
16. Host a dinner with some friends - cook the entire thing!
17. Throw a themed party... maybe a Glee Season Premiere Party... Hmm what do you think?
18. Give more to charity than I really should or really can afford
19. Sign all of the books that I read (in case I pass them on - you know?!)
20. Volunteer
21. Take my parents out for a really nice dinner
22. Take my in-laws out for a really nice dinner (is that cheating?)
23. Surprise my husband - not sure with what... but I'm no good at surprises
24. Blog more often - it is a record of life after all
25. Reunite with an old friend (or two)
26. Spend more time with family, friends, and loved ones
27. Be able to look at my finances without feeling like I need to throw up. (they aren't bad - it just makes me sick to think about a car payment, mortgage, student loans, utilities, etc.)
28. Take another class or two... Doesn't matter in what... just another class
29. Get a passport
30. Forgive those who have hurt me...

I'll keep you posted on what happens! Whew!