Wednesday, August 27, 2008

21 hours

Not that anyone is counting... but yes, just less than 21 hours until the beginning of the last year of grad school! Yay! Still no practicum - but that's another blog for another day!

I'm sitting at work wondering why I'm here! I'm exhausted because I only got 3 1/2 hours of sleep last night! For some reason I just couldn't sleep! Hopefully tonight I'll sleep well! I have to look alert for my first day of class right?! Ugh! I'm dreading it!

I think I'm just feeling overwhelmed right now! I need a vacation! I'm sick of work, I'm sick of thinking about my practicum - or lack thereof! I'm sick of boys! I'm sick of people annoying me! Plus, my throat hurts! I'm such a whiney baby! I am even missing lunch with friends because I don't feel good (or social for that matter). but mostly because I don't feel good and I don't want the little kids who are inevitably there - or the prego lady to get sick! Besides, M and I have seen each other enough this month... dang clients! :) Kidding M - you know i love seeing you! Maybe a vacation will brighten my mood and make me happy! Oh right - no time or money for a vacation! Maybe a new purse or sunglasses will do the same! Hmm.... I guess we'll see won't we!

On another note - my babies started school today! No, I don't have kids - my youngest siblings whom I practially raised started college today! Oh the sadness! It makes me feel old having the twins in college now! Imagine how it will be when Baby A goes to college! I'll have a nervous breakdown - but that's still another 17 years away! Luckily!

I think I'll get some paperwork done - go to a meeting - and then depending on my ambition level, work at home or back at the office! As long as I can get some rest tonight! Can't be late for my first day of school!

Thursday, August 21, 2008

Good 'Ole Jack....

So TM and I went to see Jack Johnson on Monday. Initially I was really excited, until I realized that I'm an idiot and got lawn seats!!! I don't sit on the lawn! So we bought a blanket and off we went to enjoy some Jack Johnson!

We found a nice spot towards the back in the shade since it was about 6:30 and still pretty toasty. The concert started at 7 with two opening bands that I hadn't heard of and didn't really care for all that much - and Jack didn't even come on until 9 ish. By then I was kind of bored - okay really bored (I spent two hours talking with TM, watching people while playing at least T didn't wear that!, and playing blockbreaker on my phone)! TM was bored too - I'm pretty sure she took five hundred pictures of her eyeballs!

Jack finally came on stage - and what a downer! There was no crowd interaction, I couldn't see much cause I was too bored to stand (is that even really possible?), plus EVERYWHERE there were couples that were spooning, getting busy under blankets, and assuming the annoying we "love each other at concerts pose." If you don't know what this is let me describe it - He stands behind her with his pelvis jammed into her butt - with his arms wrapped around her while trying to inconspicuously grope her at the same time as they sway to the music.... blah! On top of that, there were lots of people smoking pot. So, TM and I left early! Yes, before intermission even! We left around 10 ish. I never leave a concert early - but it would have been more entertaining if I were listening to him on a CD... so we left. (TM said she would have considered staying if we could have at least gotten a good contact high - no such luck) What is this world coming to when you have to leave a concert early because you're so bored??? Oh well - could have been worse!

7 days until school starts... still no practicum! A bunch of kids on my caseload are freaking out - of course right before school starts..... Both - definitely worse than leaving a concert early!

Monday, August 18, 2008

Cha Cha Cha - Charmin!

Well, this weekend was fun I guess. I spent a lot of time with friends and family which is always how I like to spend my time. Shopping for a back to school box for my little Sis on a mission... PS - Wal-Mart has these hilarious Chuck Norris folders... I bought 7 for her! "Chuck Norris can lead a horse to water and make it drink." Why am I so amused by those? I'm pretty sure he's like 70! Anyway - I watched a movie with a friend, went on a Shamanic journey, and went on a "drive."

My friend B called this weekend and asked if I wanted to go on a drive - I said sure why not and got ready to go. Not exactly sure where we would be going but knowing it would be up a canyon, I decided to pack some snacks - this whole ww thing has increased my appetite so I eat more frequently. I brought water, goldfish crackers, and some twizzlers. Anyway, when I think of going on a drive, I think driving up to Heber - stopping at Grannys for shakes, and coming home. Apparently this is not what B had in mind. We went out Spanish Fork Canyon to this road called Skyline Drive where I was told we were taking the long way to Ephraim. (PS - who in their right mind wants to go to ephraim for fun???) So off we go - little did I know Skyline Drive, happens to be a dirt road on the top of some mountain ridge! So we were off roading in the truck. It started out fine - I didn't mind and the scenery was beautiful! But it was LONG! I don't really have that long of an attention span in the first place, let alone to drive hours on a dirt road! Anyway, it was bumpy and the next time we go on a "drive" i'll be wearing a sports bra over my regular bra - cause the ladies just didn't enjoy themselves!

The interesting part was that it's apparently Bow Hunt season... I saw hundreds of hunters with their cross bows and camo clothing... and a few with camo face paint - they're the real die hards! They all had their 4-wheelers and binoculars so they could find some poor unsuspecting deer to shoot - with a bow! If I were a deer I'd prefer a gun... more of a quick death - a bow? really?! Anyway, so that was interesting - the hunters were everywhere!

Meanwhile, I'm getting that familiar sensation that I'm going to have to pee pretty quick. We stop somewhere for B to pee and he asks if I need to go - I tell him no way and I'll wait til we make it down figuring surely we are close to the city! An hour later I can't wait anymore - I've gotta go! So, we find a small spot to pull over on - I wait for some 4-wheelers to pass and I hop out of the truck, tell B to move his side mirror so he can't see me and pee as quickly as possible right by the truck! Lucky for me, B carries charmin in his truck at all times - and I carry Purel... Score! Unlucky for me - I hate peeing outside! There is a reason toilets were put on this earth and I'm pretty sure it's so that girls don't have to squat and hold their pants at the same time so they don't pee all over themselves - OUTSIDE! Some poor hunter I'm sure caught an eye full with his binoculars! 'Oy!

It was a good thing I brought snacks because the drive ended up being 4 1/2 hours long! UGH! My butt hurt after the drive... it can only handle so much dirt road ya know?! But otherwise, it was a pretty nice drive - the scenery was great - the peeing, not so much! :)

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

15 days and counting

Yes that's right - 15 days until I am sitting in the hideously uncomfortable desks of the social work building for the last year of my Masters Degree Program.... Am I excited? Of course. Am I nervous? Sure. Am I frustrated? YES! Why you may ask? It's not like I haven't done this before - I am a second year after all. My frustration stems from something bigger - like the fact that there's 15 days until class and I still don't have a practicum site. Yes, slightly stressful! Here's the skinny on that...

I've been in contact with my practicum advisor and haven't been able to get a hold of the practicum person I was supposed to meet with to arrange everything. Well, finally she makes contact with the practicum office after several calls from both me and them. Come to find out - she gave my practicum away.... to a BYU student. Is that really even fair? No - it's totally not, and I'm not completely to blame! Sure, I should have called my practicum advisor before the beginning of July to say that she never returned my phone calls. But she should have been responsible and called me to tell me she had a different number - afterall, she had all of my contact information! The thing that really irks me is the fact that it's a BYU student. Already the U of U has very few practicum placements that actually pay, this one being one of the highest (yes, i'd love to give you a psych eval for $8.00 an hour...) - yet all of the BYU practicums are required to be paid. So, a BYU student swoops in and steals my practicum along with the stipend. NOT FAIR!

So my practicum advisor tells me that I can still go there and work - they'll find something for me to do I'm sure - and I'll be doing it for free! Right - how am I supposed to feel about that?! Well, i'm not sure how i'm supposed to feel - but I can certainly tell you how I do feel. I have mixed emotions. Part of me wonders if this is a blessing in disguise... but another part of me is frustrated because it was a completely unfair process. I was the only one who was not interviewed for the practicum, not because of any fault of my own, but because the lady cancelled on me and never returned my phone calls to reschedule... How unfair is that! So I was automatically ousted out of the practicum by May and nobody told me! Part of me wants to go and work there - work hard and show them what they would have missed out on, even if it is for free. But another part of me, doesn't want to feel like the "charity case" that they "had" to provide a practicum for. I mean, nobody really wants to feel like that right?! I hate this!

Luckily, my mother is an LCSW and a professor at UVU - so she is trying to find something for me because my practicum advisor does not see the seriousness in this situation! Obviously! So, for the next 15 days I wait, hope that I get a practicum, and try not to drive myself crazy! It should be fun - or at least interesting!

In other news.... I did hit my 10% a couple of weeks ago and got my fabulous pink coach purse. It's wonderful! I also had my birthday last week... Meh, 27 feels like 26! Luckily, I have some great friends who made my birthday enjoyable! D texted me on my birthday and I have been an emotional wreck ever since! Why does he do that to me??? I'm trying to hold it together without consoling myself with food - a lot of good that does when I have ice cream and a giant cookie all in the same day! Ugh! I hate being an emotional eater! And - my work schedule started four 10 hour days.... I have mixed feelings. I love knowing I don't have to work on Fridays - but i have class and hopefully one day a practicum! But I don't really like the whole be at the office at 7 thing... Okay, let's be honest - I'm not really good at it either. If i'm here by 8, I call that a success! And, I have a secret crush on a 45 year old - I know what you're thinking but I JUST found out he was 45 - I thought he was 35!!! Imagine my surprise! Otherwise, dating is worthless and I pretty much hate it!

I'll try and be more diligent in my blogging.... We'll see how that goes! :)