...Whew...

Apparently I didn't ruin things! Luckily! I was pretty worried for a while there. I talked with D. earlier this week and he apologized for not getting back to me sooner and said that I wasn't really pressuring him - but that he felt pressure in general. I can live with that! We are friends now and that's where it stays for the time being. I'm completely relieved but seriously annoyed at the same time. Part of me wishes he would have just cut it all off to save myself the pain and agony of dealing with the unknown - but the other part of me knows how much I like the boy - and how I feel when I'm around him so I'm grateful for the hope... Damn hope! I haven't brought up hanging out although he did in a vague way. I guess time will tell - and let's be honest - I've got all the time in the world! Screw everyone and their opinions of unmarried girls in their late 20's... I'm getting my education and while I'll never make loads of money - I'll make a difference! And who knows if I would have been able to do that if things had been different... and I don't ever want to know if they would have. I am finally content!