December 23rd... a day to remember. T and I decided that we would exchange presents early and have a nice dinner alone because we would be spending Christmas Eve and all of Christmas with our families, and we figured it would be nice to start our own Christmas tradition - so he got us reservations at the Melting Pot for dinner. I went to his house earlier than planned because I really didn't want to work - who wants to work two days before Christmas anyway!
T and I were alone at his house and we decided to exchange gifts right away. If you know me well at all, you know I LOVE giving presents and don't like waiting for them to be opened! So, I eagerly watched T open his presents and he seemed to like them just fine. Then he gave me mine - a giant pink Coach box! If you know me well at all, you know I'm not a very good gift receiver - but I love purses! I knew it was a purse because we had already discussed it when he ordered it online (plus, if I didn't know - the big pink box would have given it away).
I slowly opened the box and unwrapped Julianne.... she is even more beautiful in person than the picture online! Then T told me that he was at the mall the other day and got me another gift and put it in the purse. I was kind of mad about that. I have a hard time getting gifts, and he had already bought me a beautiful purse - why would he buy me another one!? I was kind of frustrated by that! So I kept avoiding opening the purse until he told me I had to open it.
I opened the purse and pulled out a small creme colored silky pillow with ribbon on it - and noticed a shiny ring attached to it! I was SO shocked! The only thing I could say was, "Oh My Gosh" and then I covered my mouth and just looked at T. T got on his knee and told me he loved me and wanted to spend the rest of his life with me - and then asked me to marry him! (At least that's how I kind of remember it... I was really caught off guard!) I nodded, and then said yes of course! Both of us held back the tears as he put the ring on my finger and hugged and kissed me.
I was so surprised! I really had no idea it was going to happen! I thought that T would maybe propose at Valentines Day the very earliest, but more like around graduation time - so I was completely caught off guard - but I was also very happy about it! We cancelled our reservations for dinner and then left to see my family and share the good news! Afterward, we went back up to Salt Lake to celebrate with his family! We are both really excited! March 14th 2009 is the big day - unless I talk him into going to Vegas earlier! :) I'll try and keep you posted!
Friday, December 26, 2008
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
So Sweet....
I'm pretty sure T will kick me if he sees this - but I had to write about it. We had our first "disagreement" Sunday night into Monday morning... really it was mostly Monday morning. And we weren't really disagreeing - my hypersensitive feelings were just hurt and one little thing turned into a horrible morning for me yesterday. Not only were my feelings hurt, but I was scolded at work and I had a final research paper due so I was not a happy camper yesterday! If you ask my coworkers - I was a mess! (there were many tears spilt all morning!)
Poor T, knowing that I was feeling bad - he wanted to talk about why my feelings were hurt and wanted to make things right so I ended up meeting with him and he jumped right in. He wanted to know exactly what I was thinking, and why I was hurt, and what he could do to make me feel better - It was quite amazing really! We talked for a while and I told him what I was feeling and he explained his reactions and by the end of our conversation - he apologized (I did too - it wasn't all his fault), kissed me and told me he loved me and it was all better! It's no wonder I am so in love with this boy - he's amazing and so sweet!
Another sweet thing... little Baby A. He is 2 today and not so little anymore! We had a little family party on Sunday where he opened presents, had cake and a bath! I just love this little guy - he makes me smile every time I see him... and I can't help but giggle when a toy scares him - it's a little funny! :) Happy B-day Baby A!
Poor T, knowing that I was feeling bad - he wanted to talk about why my feelings were hurt and wanted to make things right so I ended up meeting with him and he jumped right in. He wanted to know exactly what I was thinking, and why I was hurt, and what he could do to make me feel better - It was quite amazing really! We talked for a while and I told him what I was feeling and he explained his reactions and by the end of our conversation - he apologized (I did too - it wasn't all his fault), kissed me and told me he loved me and it was all better! It's no wonder I am so in love with this boy - he's amazing and so sweet!
Another sweet thing... little Baby A. He is 2 today and not so little anymore! We had a little family party on Sunday where he opened presents, had cake and a bath! I just love this little guy - he makes me smile every time I see him... and I can't help but giggle when a toy scares him - it's a little funny! :) Happy B-day Baby A!
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Turkey and Kurt
I just realized I never blogged about Thanksgiving! Oops! I guess I should do that! Here's the readers digest version:
I spent Thanksgiving with T and his family in St. George. It was really nice! We drove out with the dog and spent an hour or two with his parents before his sister and her family arrived. We spent the week watching videos, playing games, playing the wii, eating (it was thanksgiving obviously), and just spending time together. The kids went swimming in the back yard, the boys put together a bbq grill, and the girls went to look at model homes. T even made sure I had some time to get some homework done (what a guy!).
I have to say that I really loved spending 5 ish days with T. I was really spoiled and saw him almost every minute of every day - and enjoyed it all. He is such a wonderful guy! His family is great too! His sister and her family are really nice and I love his niece and nephew! His parents are great too - his mom is so nice, and his dad is hilarious! It was such a nice and relaxing week! The worst part was when it ended because now we had to go back to regular life - living separately, working all day, seeing each other in the evenings if possible. It wasn't something I was looking forward to at all! But we make the best of it! :)
On another note - I went and saw Kurt Bestor last night in concert. I loved it! In my opinion, it was much better than the Forgotten Carols this year! It wasn't as contrived, and it was just really relaxing. It also helped that we had AMAZING seats! My mom and I loved it - she loved it more though because she is secretly in love with Kurt Bestor... I guess it's not a secret now! ;) In any case - I love this time of year - it's so nice and relaxing! And hopefully in taking some time off this month I'll get to spend more time with T... :) Happy Holidays!
I spent Thanksgiving with T and his family in St. George. It was really nice! We drove out with the dog and spent an hour or two with his parents before his sister and her family arrived. We spent the week watching videos, playing games, playing the wii, eating (it was thanksgiving obviously), and just spending time together. The kids went swimming in the back yard, the boys put together a bbq grill, and the girls went to look at model homes. T even made sure I had some time to get some homework done (what a guy!).
I have to say that I really loved spending 5 ish days with T. I was really spoiled and saw him almost every minute of every day - and enjoyed it all. He is such a wonderful guy! His family is great too! His sister and her family are really nice and I love his niece and nephew! His parents are great too - his mom is so nice, and his dad is hilarious! It was such a nice and relaxing week! The worst part was when it ended because now we had to go back to regular life - living separately, working all day, seeing each other in the evenings if possible. It wasn't something I was looking forward to at all! But we make the best of it! :)
On another note - I went and saw Kurt Bestor last night in concert. I loved it! In my opinion, it was much better than the Forgotten Carols this year! It wasn't as contrived, and it was just really relaxing. It also helped that we had AMAZING seats! My mom and I loved it - she loved it more though because she is secretly in love with Kurt Bestor... I guess it's not a secret now! ;) In any case - I love this time of year - it's so nice and relaxing! And hopefully in taking some time off this month I'll get to spend more time with T... :) Happy Holidays!
Friday, December 5, 2008
Linking and Singing
Well, it's been a while since I've written anything really noteworthy so here goes! On Wednesday night I went to see the Forgotten Carols! Yay! I went with my mom, my little Sis Sh, and T. I had invited T the day before and he had to reschedule an appointment in order to go. I was really happy that he was able to do that!
I warned him that it was a play/musical and that it was full of Christmas songs. I neglected to tell him it was as religious as it was (it's just the Christmas story) - and he told me it was fine, he does know the Christmas story after all. At intermission I asked how he was liking it so far - and he said he enjoyed it. Really though, who wouldn't enjoy it!
The part that had me worried was the very end... If you've ever been to the Forgotten Carols you know what part I'm talking about. The part where everyone has to hold hands and sing "We can be together forever someday." I was worried he would be slightly uncomfortable - I would be! But, he was a trooper! I guess now you have to link arms and sing... He didn't link with the man next to him but he linked with me and that's really all that matters right?!
It was a nice night - I love Christmas music, especially the Forgotten Carols (although, I can live without Michael McLean's ugly voice - and Connie Lou was only mediocre) - and I got to spend time with 3 of my favorite people in the world! Gotta love Christmas time!
I warned him that it was a play/musical and that it was full of Christmas songs. I neglected to tell him it was as religious as it was (it's just the Christmas story) - and he told me it was fine, he does know the Christmas story after all. At intermission I asked how he was liking it so far - and he said he enjoyed it. Really though, who wouldn't enjoy it!
The part that had me worried was the very end... If you've ever been to the Forgotten Carols you know what part I'm talking about. The part where everyone has to hold hands and sing "We can be together forever someday." I was worried he would be slightly uncomfortable - I would be! But, he was a trooper! I guess now you have to link arms and sing... He didn't link with the man next to him but he linked with me and that's really all that matters right?!
It was a nice night - I love Christmas music, especially the Forgotten Carols (although, I can live without Michael McLean's ugly voice - and Connie Lou was only mediocre) - and I got to spend time with 3 of my favorite people in the world! Gotta love Christmas time!
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Gratitude Day #7
I warned you... I wouldn't be able to post because I was going to be out of town! Here's my little pieces of gratitude from Turkey Day...
1. I'm thankful for families. Not just mine, but everyones. Even though I wasn't with my immediate family for Thanksgiving - I spent the better part of a week with T's family. He has a really great family! They are so opposite of mine - quiet, low key, nice... kidding of course! His family is really quiet and the week was spent relaxing and just being together. It was wonderful!
2. I'm thankful for my planner. (not my financial planner - although I'm thankful for him too - my calendar planner) I would be lost without it! How else would I know what I have to do during the day if I didn't have my wonderful little planner to tell me! It always gets so full and stresses me out looking at everything I have to do and haven't done - but really, it keeps me in check - and for that I'm grateful.
3. I'm thankful for blankets... I love blankets. They keep you warm, and when I was little I felt like it protected me somehow. The monsters couldn't get me if I was under the blankets. I just got a new blanket - it's warm and soft and makes me so very happy... I love blankets!
1. I'm thankful for families. Not just mine, but everyones. Even though I wasn't with my immediate family for Thanksgiving - I spent the better part of a week with T's family. He has a really great family! They are so opposite of mine - quiet, low key, nice... kidding of course! His family is really quiet and the week was spent relaxing and just being together. It was wonderful!
2. I'm thankful for my planner. (not my financial planner - although I'm thankful for him too - my calendar planner) I would be lost without it! How else would I know what I have to do during the day if I didn't have my wonderful little planner to tell me! It always gets so full and stresses me out looking at everything I have to do and haven't done - but really, it keeps me in check - and for that I'm grateful.
3. I'm thankful for blankets... I love blankets. They keep you warm, and when I was little I felt like it protected me somehow. The monsters couldn't get me if I was under the blankets. I just got a new blanket - it's warm and soft and makes me so very happy... I love blankets!
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Gratitude Day # 6
What would I do without...
1. Pedicures. I am thankful for pedicures. I think feet are gross - especially when they are gross feet! So, I love getting a pedicure. It feels so great to have my feet and legs massaged and to get my toes painted... I love having pretty toes. I think I'll go get one today :)
2. A Giant Purse. You all knew this one would come up! I have a sickness - I'm a purse-a-holic. No such thing?! The wallpaper on my computer and cell phone are both purses. I used to have well over 30, now I only have 5... but long for more! Ugh! They have to be big purses though - I have to put a lot of stuff in them - especially because I'm in school and working and live far away - there are lots of things I have to keep in my purse! Now I really need a new one!
3. My nephew! He is leaving for AZ tonight for several days and I haven't seen him in just over two weeks, so I had to make the ultimate sacrifice today and wake up freakishly early to see him before he skips town. I got to his house just after 6:30 this morning and got to wake him up, get him dressed for the day, and give him some breakfast. It was a nice morning and I enjoyed spending time with him - he is especially cuddly in the mornings! I love that little boy!
1. Pedicures. I am thankful for pedicures. I think feet are gross - especially when they are gross feet! So, I love getting a pedicure. It feels so great to have my feet and legs massaged and to get my toes painted... I love having pretty toes. I think I'll go get one today :)
2. A Giant Purse. You all knew this one would come up! I have a sickness - I'm a purse-a-holic. No such thing?! The wallpaper on my computer and cell phone are both purses. I used to have well over 30, now I only have 5... but long for more! Ugh! They have to be big purses though - I have to put a lot of stuff in them - especially because I'm in school and working and live far away - there are lots of things I have to keep in my purse! Now I really need a new one!
3. My nephew! He is leaving for AZ tonight for several days and I haven't seen him in just over two weeks, so I had to make the ultimate sacrifice today and wake up freakishly early to see him before he skips town. I got to his house just after 6:30 this morning and got to wake him up, get him dressed for the day, and give him some breakfast. It was a nice morning and I enjoyed spending time with him - he is especially cuddly in the mornings! I love that little boy!
Monday, November 24, 2008
Gratitude Day # 5
Today I am thankful for...
1. My cell phone. Yes, some call it my Crackberry... but I love it! If I lost it, I'm pretty sure I would go crazy! I wouldn't know anyones phone numbers. How would I get ahold of people!? Plus, I am slightly addicted to texting! It's easier to get a quick question answered. I know that some people text at inappropriate times (I am occasionally guilty) but it keeps me in touch.
2. Holidays. I love the holidays! I love spending time with family and friends! I think this time of year people are different. I know that I try harder to think of others first and make sure that the people I love and care about are taken care of and have everything they need and want in life. I think people in general, are trying to be better this time of year. I think that may be the holiday feeling that we get.
3. T. Go ahead and laugh and make cheesy remarks about being thankful for him - but I am thankful for him for lots of reasons! I'm thankful for the way he makes me feel. I'm thankful for the wonderful things he says to me. I'm thankful for the way he looks at me and the way he sees me. I'm thankful that he likes my family and that they like him! Most of all, I'm thankful for the person he makes me want to be!
1. My cell phone. Yes, some call it my Crackberry... but I love it! If I lost it, I'm pretty sure I would go crazy! I wouldn't know anyones phone numbers. How would I get ahold of people!? Plus, I am slightly addicted to texting! It's easier to get a quick question answered. I know that some people text at inappropriate times (I am occasionally guilty) but it keeps me in touch.
2. Holidays. I love the holidays! I love spending time with family and friends! I think this time of year people are different. I know that I try harder to think of others first and make sure that the people I love and care about are taken care of and have everything they need and want in life. I think people in general, are trying to be better this time of year. I think that may be the holiday feeling that we get.
3. T. Go ahead and laugh and make cheesy remarks about being thankful for him - but I am thankful for him for lots of reasons! I'm thankful for the way he makes me feel. I'm thankful for the wonderful things he says to me. I'm thankful for the way he looks at me and the way he sees me. I'm thankful that he likes my family and that they like him! Most of all, I'm thankful for the person he makes me want to be!
Gratitude Day # 4
I am thankful for...
1. My job! Thankful I have one first and foremost, but I am thankful for my job because I love it. I have met some amazing people through work! I have made some great friends through my office, through the providers I work with, and through different divisions I work with. It is nice to be able to enjoy work because of the people I work with. Not only that, but I love my clients! I am so grateful to work with some amazing 'kids'. I have been truly blessed by their love as well. I had a client pass away almost two years ago, and after the funeral I received a very nice thank you card from her family - thanking me for everything I had done for them. In reality, I hadn't done much for them and felt like they had truly blessed my life as they are some of the most unconditionally loving people I have ever met.
2. My Education. Yes, I am in the middle of furthering my education, but how lucky am I to be able to do this?! So lucky! I am truly blessed to be able to go to school and get a great education so that I am able to provide for a family in the future - and also so that I can be a good example to my own children. I want my children (assuming I have some) to know that an education is important! You never know when you will need it!
3. Motion Sensors in Public Bathrooms. I know this is odd, especially because my first two were so important. This is important too! Most of you know I loathe public bathrooms! Can't stand them and try not to use them! However, with modern technology, I can go to the bathroom and not have to touch anything with my hands! It really is a miracle! No flushing because the toilets flush on their own! No touching sink handles because the water turns on by itself! No touching a soap dispenser squirter because it squirts itself! No touching the paper towel dispenser because they dispense with the wave of a hand! Now, if only the doors would open on their own....
1. My job! Thankful I have one first and foremost, but I am thankful for my job because I love it. I have met some amazing people through work! I have made some great friends through my office, through the providers I work with, and through different divisions I work with. It is nice to be able to enjoy work because of the people I work with. Not only that, but I love my clients! I am so grateful to work with some amazing 'kids'. I have been truly blessed by their love as well. I had a client pass away almost two years ago, and after the funeral I received a very nice thank you card from her family - thanking me for everything I had done for them. In reality, I hadn't done much for them and felt like they had truly blessed my life as they are some of the most unconditionally loving people I have ever met.
2. My Education. Yes, I am in the middle of furthering my education, but how lucky am I to be able to do this?! So lucky! I am truly blessed to be able to go to school and get a great education so that I am able to provide for a family in the future - and also so that I can be a good example to my own children. I want my children (assuming I have some) to know that an education is important! You never know when you will need it!
3. Motion Sensors in Public Bathrooms. I know this is odd, especially because my first two were so important. This is important too! Most of you know I loathe public bathrooms! Can't stand them and try not to use them! However, with modern technology, I can go to the bathroom and not have to touch anything with my hands! It really is a miracle! No flushing because the toilets flush on their own! No touching sink handles because the water turns on by itself! No touching a soap dispenser squirter because it squirts itself! No touching the paper towel dispenser because they dispense with the wave of a hand! Now, if only the doors would open on their own....
Gratitude Day #3
Three more things I'm grateful for!
1. Bobby Pins & Elastics. Random, yes. Important - Insanely so!!! My hair is at that length where it just does what it wants - it's not too long, not too short - but not exactly easy to control at times! Hence the bobby pins and elastics! My bangs are annoying right now, so they are bobby pinned back! And by 3 p.m. I'm sick of my hair and want to pull it all out - so I pull out a trusty elastic and pull it into a ponytail! Instant fix really! The woman who figured out she could pull her hair back into a ponytail - is my hero! (I realize men have had long hair and may have figured out the ponytail long ago - however, I refuse to admit a man may have in fact invented the ponytail - they should keep their hair short!)
2. Peds. I love peds! They saved me on the mission and continue to amaze me now! I can't stand wearing nylons! Ugh! They are hideous, uncomfortable, and hot!!! Luckily, on my mission I discovered Peds (little nylon footies) and was allowed to wear those on the mission! What a lifesaver! It seriously made my life easier - okay, it made my legs and feet less hot! Nobody wants to wear nylons in 100 degree weather! I love them now too because while I have soem cute shoes - they're not very cute with socks - and trouser socks are kind of similar to nylons only better... Peds are just wonderful! I have them in black, white, and tan... lucky me!
3. Email! I am a horrible letter writer! You'd think that having been on a mission I'd be a better letter writer - however, it's quite the opposite. I'm an emailing fool! I love having a little Sis on a mission - and I send her emails weekly! If we didn't have email, I would be stuck writing a letter each week and I just can't do that. I would forget!!!
1. Bobby Pins & Elastics. Random, yes. Important - Insanely so!!! My hair is at that length where it just does what it wants - it's not too long, not too short - but not exactly easy to control at times! Hence the bobby pins and elastics! My bangs are annoying right now, so they are bobby pinned back! And by 3 p.m. I'm sick of my hair and want to pull it all out - so I pull out a trusty elastic and pull it into a ponytail! Instant fix really! The woman who figured out she could pull her hair back into a ponytail - is my hero! (I realize men have had long hair and may have figured out the ponytail long ago - however, I refuse to admit a man may have in fact invented the ponytail - they should keep their hair short!)
2. Peds. I love peds! They saved me on the mission and continue to amaze me now! I can't stand wearing nylons! Ugh! They are hideous, uncomfortable, and hot!!! Luckily, on my mission I discovered Peds (little nylon footies) and was allowed to wear those on the mission! What a lifesaver! It seriously made my life easier - okay, it made my legs and feet less hot! Nobody wants to wear nylons in 100 degree weather! I love them now too because while I have soem cute shoes - they're not very cute with socks - and trouser socks are kind of similar to nylons only better... Peds are just wonderful! I have them in black, white, and tan... lucky me!
3. Email! I am a horrible letter writer! You'd think that having been on a mission I'd be a better letter writer - however, it's quite the opposite. I'm an emailing fool! I love having a little Sis on a mission - and I send her emails weekly! If we didn't have email, I would be stuck writing a letter each week and I just can't do that. I would forget!!!
Gratitude Day #2
Right - So I had planned on doing this all week and we see how well I did. In my defense, I don't typically get online Friday through Sunday because I'm at home and have other things to do. However, that is no excuse for my lack of gratitude. I'll be posting 3 or 4 today - just to catch up. Sorry! And I can't promise I can finish this week out with the gratitudes... I'm leaving for St. George tomorrow! Sorry!
1. My Mom. I'm super thankful for my mom. She is so understanding, wise, and an awesome example. She doesn't read my blog (I doubt she knows I have one) so i can brag about her - She is one of the smartest people I know! I truly value her opinion and hope one day I can be like her! She encourages me to pursue my dreams. Keeps me grounded when I need it. And is supportive in everything I do. It means the world to me that she likes T so much!!!
2. Hector. Yes, my good 'ole car! Hector is a great companion! He is reliable and has a great sounding stereo - which is really important because I commute! I would DIE without my stereo. Hector keeps me warm in the winter, cool in the summer, and provides a nice way to get around town. He doesn't even mind when I leave things in the trunk that I really don't need (hence the stroller that has been in there for over a month - oops!)
3. MUSIC! Expect this to be on any and every blog where I talk about things I love, am thankful for, or would die without! I love music! It can help me define my mood, amplify my mood, change my mood. It helps me relax, and can put to words emotions and thoughts that I can't even begin to describe! My current playlist really can tell you a million things about me and my life at that moment! I love music!
1. My Mom. I'm super thankful for my mom. She is so understanding, wise, and an awesome example. She doesn't read my blog (I doubt she knows I have one) so i can brag about her - She is one of the smartest people I know! I truly value her opinion and hope one day I can be like her! She encourages me to pursue my dreams. Keeps me grounded when I need it. And is supportive in everything I do. It means the world to me that she likes T so much!!!
2. Hector. Yes, my good 'ole car! Hector is a great companion! He is reliable and has a great sounding stereo - which is really important because I commute! I would DIE without my stereo. Hector keeps me warm in the winter, cool in the summer, and provides a nice way to get around town. He doesn't even mind when I leave things in the trunk that I really don't need (hence the stroller that has been in there for over a month - oops!)
3. MUSIC! Expect this to be on any and every blog where I talk about things I love, am thankful for, or would die without! I love music! It can help me define my mood, amplify my mood, change my mood. It helps me relax, and can put to words emotions and thoughts that I can't even begin to describe! My current playlist really can tell you a million things about me and my life at that moment! I love music!
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Gratitude Day #1
It is now one week until Thanksgiving and I figure now is an appropriate time to just mention a few things I am thankful for - every day until Thanksgiving.
1. I'm grateful for chapstick. As odd as it sounds, I can't live without chapstick! Of course I have my favorite kinds but almost any chapstick will do. I don't do well with chapped lips so I have lots of chapstick around. It's a necessity!
2. I'm grateful for amazing friends! I love spending time with the girls! Whether we go shopping, get our toes done, catch a movie, a bite to eat, or attend card class - it's always a great time! I have some of the greatest girl friends alive! I love them all!!!
3. Pellet Ice! Strange? Maybe - but I love pellet ice! Since I gave up soda last year, I haven't had much pellet ice until last week! Half of my family was sick and my mom got some pellet ice to help calm the flu inflicted masses! I was SO excited! I can tell you where pellet ice is found almost all around the valley! I love having pellet ice in my water! It makes me so happy!
1. I'm grateful for chapstick. As odd as it sounds, I can't live without chapstick! Of course I have my favorite kinds but almost any chapstick will do. I don't do well with chapped lips so I have lots of chapstick around. It's a necessity!
2. I'm grateful for amazing friends! I love spending time with the girls! Whether we go shopping, get our toes done, catch a movie, a bite to eat, or attend card class - it's always a great time! I have some of the greatest girl friends alive! I love them all!!!
3. Pellet Ice! Strange? Maybe - but I love pellet ice! Since I gave up soda last year, I haven't had much pellet ice until last week! Half of my family was sick and my mom got some pellet ice to help calm the flu inflicted masses! I was SO excited! I can tell you where pellet ice is found almost all around the valley! I love having pellet ice in my water! It makes me so happy!
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Hungry???
I had such a cool opportunity last week - that I wanted to share it with you! I went to the Utah Valley University 6th Annual Hunger Banquet last Thursday with my mom and my little sister Sh. I didn't know much about it other than it was a charity event to give money to the food bank in Utah County - so I was excited to attend.
When we arrived we were each given a number and an assigned place at a table with colored paper placemats. Mine was red, Mom and Sh's were a Cream color. We noticed there was one place setting at the table that was really nice! It had a nice cloth napkin, an entire set of silverware, a cloth napkin, glasses to drink from and a pitcher of water and a pitcher of lemonade and even a brownie. As people were sat at our table we said hello to them and made some small talk (my mom knew a couple of them since they were students in one of her classes) while we waited for the program to start. When it started the event coordinator told us that the placemats were color coded by our new assigned Socio Economic Status. My Red placemat indicated that I was a working class individual (it was quite fitting since I pretty much looked homeless that day - I wasn't going to see T so I didn't bother looking nice for class - oops!) My mom and sister were middle-class and luckily, there was no Snoody snood at our table (I had to play the role you know). We were excused to get our dinners. My sister and mother had pizza and soda. I had half a cup of plain white rice and half a cup of plain black beans.... thank goodness for Pepper.
What an experience it was! I sat there watching people interact at our table, and eating my beans and rice. Lucky for me, I spent a year and a half eating beans and rice for lunch and dinner so I didn't mind it. However, two of the other people at our table refused to eat the beans and rice and were angry that their $7.00 ticket paid for only that. My mom and sister both offered me some of their pizza but I wanted to enjoy the entire experience. There was a mother and her son at our table as well. The son was assigned rice and beans with me, and the mother got pizza. I watched her promptly give him the pizza and eat the rice and beans herself. I started to wonder how often that happens and remembered my mission and how the people there did things like that all the time! Missionaries, husbands and kids ate first. If there was anything left, the mother would eat. It made me really appreciate my mother even more!
By the time I left that evening, my pockets were empty (I gave all the money I had) and so was my stomach (beans and rice aren't very filling) - but my heart was full! I was so happy to have had that opportunity! I remember being poor when I was younger - but we were never beans and rice poor! I hope to make this a tradition and attend every year. It is that time of year when the food bank is emptying quicker than it is filling! I don't want people to be hungry! It's not a fun feeling!
When we arrived we were each given a number and an assigned place at a table with colored paper placemats. Mine was red, Mom and Sh's were a Cream color. We noticed there was one place setting at the table that was really nice! It had a nice cloth napkin, an entire set of silverware, a cloth napkin, glasses to drink from and a pitcher of water and a pitcher of lemonade and even a brownie. As people were sat at our table we said hello to them and made some small talk (my mom knew a couple of them since they were students in one of her classes) while we waited for the program to start. When it started the event coordinator told us that the placemats were color coded by our new assigned Socio Economic Status. My Red placemat indicated that I was a working class individual (it was quite fitting since I pretty much looked homeless that day - I wasn't going to see T so I didn't bother looking nice for class - oops!) My mom and sister were middle-class and luckily, there was no Snoody snood at our table (I had to play the role you know). We were excused to get our dinners. My sister and mother had pizza and soda. I had half a cup of plain white rice and half a cup of plain black beans.... thank goodness for Pepper.
What an experience it was! I sat there watching people interact at our table, and eating my beans and rice. Lucky for me, I spent a year and a half eating beans and rice for lunch and dinner so I didn't mind it. However, two of the other people at our table refused to eat the beans and rice and were angry that their $7.00 ticket paid for only that. My mom and sister both offered me some of their pizza but I wanted to enjoy the entire experience. There was a mother and her son at our table as well. The son was assigned rice and beans with me, and the mother got pizza. I watched her promptly give him the pizza and eat the rice and beans herself. I started to wonder how often that happens and remembered my mission and how the people there did things like that all the time! Missionaries, husbands and kids ate first. If there was anything left, the mother would eat. It made me really appreciate my mother even more!
By the time I left that evening, my pockets were empty (I gave all the money I had) and so was my stomach (beans and rice aren't very filling) - but my heart was full! I was so happy to have had that opportunity! I remember being poor when I was younger - but we were never beans and rice poor! I hope to make this a tradition and attend every year. It is that time of year when the food bank is emptying quicker than it is filling! I don't want people to be hungry! It's not a fun feeling!
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
12 days and counting
Whew! What can I say about life right now other than the fact that I am in a blissful state - and have been for the past 12 days... (if stuff like this grosses you out - don't read... I'm sure it'll be mushy - that's for you Les) I briefly mentioned in my last blog about going on a date with T... I think this would be the time to elaborate seeing as how one date has become 12 amazing days!
T and I met through a friend in July for business purposes. I thought he was cute but figured I wasn't his type... I was meeting him to hire his services (no thinking dirty!) so obviously I was in need of help! We had a nice meeting and I decided that I wanted to work with him (there may have been alterior motives there) and we soon set up an "official" meeting. After a couple of months worth of work junk and hanging out with our friend, he finally started to text me. At first it was business texting and then it became friendly texting.
Now, I'm not the "hinting" type but I have to say that I was giving some serious hints that I wanted him to ask me out... of course I wasn't going to ask him out - I'm too shy! ;) So, eventually he asked me out - and I was really shocked but excited! Our first date was great - It was really relaxed and chill. We went to Starbucks (I highly recommend the hot chocolate) and then watched some DVD's at his house and had dinner. The entire time we talked about anything and everything but the fact that we were actually on a date... we're both pretty shy I guess! The next day we spent it texting one another and finally talking about the "date" and decided to go out again... Since then we have been spending as much time together as possible!
We have spent hours upon hours talking and getting to know each other better. He is an amazing guy! He is so polite, smart, funny (he even gets my odd humor), and respectful! In fact, he didn't kiss me for a few days, so finally after one DVD had been watched I couldn't wait any longer - the anxiety was killing me - He asked what we should do next and I told him he should pick out another DVD for us to watch - but that he should probably kiss me first. He was totally shocked but kissed me and I completely melted. It was soft and gentle... magical I'd have to say. *sigh*
I know it's been only 12 days and that's really quick for many people - that's quick for me! But, in our defense - we have known each other since July... and I can't say much more other than it just feels right! I haven't felt this way.... ever!
T and I met through a friend in July for business purposes. I thought he was cute but figured I wasn't his type... I was meeting him to hire his services (no thinking dirty!) so obviously I was in need of help! We had a nice meeting and I decided that I wanted to work with him (there may have been alterior motives there) and we soon set up an "official" meeting. After a couple of months worth of work junk and hanging out with our friend, he finally started to text me. At first it was business texting and then it became friendly texting.
Now, I'm not the "hinting" type but I have to say that I was giving some serious hints that I wanted him to ask me out... of course I wasn't going to ask him out - I'm too shy! ;) So, eventually he asked me out - and I was really shocked but excited! Our first date was great - It was really relaxed and chill. We went to Starbucks (I highly recommend the hot chocolate) and then watched some DVD's at his house and had dinner. The entire time we talked about anything and everything but the fact that we were actually on a date... we're both pretty shy I guess! The next day we spent it texting one another and finally talking about the "date" and decided to go out again... Since then we have been spending as much time together as possible!
We have spent hours upon hours talking and getting to know each other better. He is an amazing guy! He is so polite, smart, funny (he even gets my odd humor), and respectful! In fact, he didn't kiss me for a few days, so finally after one DVD had been watched I couldn't wait any longer - the anxiety was killing me - He asked what we should do next and I told him he should pick out another DVD for us to watch - but that he should probably kiss me first. He was totally shocked but kissed me and I completely melted. It was soft and gentle... magical I'd have to say. *sigh*
I know it's been only 12 days and that's really quick for many people - that's quick for me! But, in our defense - we have known each other since July... and I can't say much more other than it just feels right! I haven't felt this way.... ever!
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Update!
I haven't blogged in what seems like an eternity and I have so much to say and don't necessarily know what to say or how to say it!
In any case - Halloween was great! Baby A was the cutest bear I've ever seen. Plus, Toodles (my dog) was a bumble bee! Oh man, and boy was he the cutest bumble bee ever! Baby A trick or treated at my office the day before Halloween and enjoyed himself. He loves getting candy! Trunk or Treat was so much fun too! My primary kids came and I'm pretty sure I gave each of them 3 cavities worth of candy! :) What can I say I love them!
On the 1st it was my parents 28th anniversary - Yay for them! I think I should probably throw them a party for their 30th anniversary.... or is that even a big one? They aren't really party people anyway!
Also on the 1st was my friend M's baby shower! She is so stinking cute! I was happy to be a part of the shower - hopefully she gets some use out of the pedi gift certificate - it was partly for her hubby J too... now he doesn't have to paint her toe nails! Besides, who wants to be naked from the waist down giving birth without cute toes?! :)
And - on the 1st I went on a date with T, a guy I've known for a couple of months. It was really chill and really fun! I had a good time and we hung out last night too... I think tomorrow we will probably spend some time together too. He is probably the nicest guy I've ever met! It's a nice change of pace that's for sure!
Otherwise, nothing much has happened... Oh, I did find a purse that I am in love with... her name is julianne! (I didn't name her - she came named) And she is totally out of my price range. My financial planner said that I could not buy her... Somebody has to keep a non-biased eye on my finances because I obviously think I should be able to buy her! She cost as much as a long vacation... I can't really justify that can I???
I will try and be better at blogging... it's always nicer when I actually have something to say!!!
In any case - Halloween was great! Baby A was the cutest bear I've ever seen. Plus, Toodles (my dog) was a bumble bee! Oh man, and boy was he the cutest bumble bee ever! Baby A trick or treated at my office the day before Halloween and enjoyed himself. He loves getting candy! Trunk or Treat was so much fun too! My primary kids came and I'm pretty sure I gave each of them 3 cavities worth of candy! :) What can I say I love them!
On the 1st it was my parents 28th anniversary - Yay for them! I think I should probably throw them a party for their 30th anniversary.... or is that even a big one? They aren't really party people anyway!
Also on the 1st was my friend M's baby shower! She is so stinking cute! I was happy to be a part of the shower - hopefully she gets some use out of the pedi gift certificate - it was partly for her hubby J too... now he doesn't have to paint her toe nails! Besides, who wants to be naked from the waist down giving birth without cute toes?! :)
And - on the 1st I went on a date with T, a guy I've known for a couple of months. It was really chill and really fun! I had a good time and we hung out last night too... I think tomorrow we will probably spend some time together too. He is probably the nicest guy I've ever met! It's a nice change of pace that's for sure!
Otherwise, nothing much has happened... Oh, I did find a purse that I am in love with... her name is julianne! (I didn't name her - she came named) And she is totally out of my price range. My financial planner said that I could not buy her... Somebody has to keep a non-biased eye on my finances because I obviously think I should be able to buy her! She cost as much as a long vacation... I can't really justify that can I???
I will try and be better at blogging... it's always nicer when I actually have something to say!!!
Saturday, October 25, 2008
An apology....
So, last night I was seriously humbled in a parking lot. You see, lately I've been complaining about everything really (see previous post) - and thinking life is annoying right now. Until last night anyway.
My little brother and I went to Papa Johns to pick up some dinner (I do LOVE their veggie pizza) and as we pulled into the parking lot just minutes before 6 p.m. I sent him in to get it while I waited in the car. I then saw a man leave his car that was parked at the end of the parking lot. He was in a mechanics outfit - you know the dark blue pants and shirt with the name sewn above a pocket and steel toe boots. He was carrying a green shirt and khaki pants with a matching hat. I watched him walk into the pizza place, and a short 5 minutes later saw him leaving the pizza place in a new outfit, and carrying a warming bag with someones pizza in it as he got to his car, put a Papa Johns sign on the top of his car and left.
Normally I wouldn't think anything of it - but I realized that he went right from one job, to a second job. I started thinking about what his life might be like. I saw a wedding band so I know he was married, did he have kids? Did his wife work? Did he have to have a second job to make ends meet or was he getting a head start on Christmas money. My mind spun with questions and scenarios that were really unlikely... but made me start to think.
I am so blessed! I am lucky to have a family that I love, that loves me and is really supportive of me and my decisions. I have good friends that I can talk to and spend time with and feel about myself. I have a good job with good benefits and decent pay - and I don't have to deliver pizza at night to make ends meet, or to get a head start on my Christmas shopping. So, to anyone who reads ths - I apologize for being so negative lately! I truly am blessed! I guess I just needed a reminder. Who knew it would come at a pizza place parking lot.
My little brother and I went to Papa Johns to pick up some dinner (I do LOVE their veggie pizza) and as we pulled into the parking lot just minutes before 6 p.m. I sent him in to get it while I waited in the car. I then saw a man leave his car that was parked at the end of the parking lot. He was in a mechanics outfit - you know the dark blue pants and shirt with the name sewn above a pocket and steel toe boots. He was carrying a green shirt and khaki pants with a matching hat. I watched him walk into the pizza place, and a short 5 minutes later saw him leaving the pizza place in a new outfit, and carrying a warming bag with someones pizza in it as he got to his car, put a Papa Johns sign on the top of his car and left.
Normally I wouldn't think anything of it - but I realized that he went right from one job, to a second job. I started thinking about what his life might be like. I saw a wedding band so I know he was married, did he have kids? Did his wife work? Did he have to have a second job to make ends meet or was he getting a head start on Christmas money. My mind spun with questions and scenarios that were really unlikely... but made me start to think.
I am so blessed! I am lucky to have a family that I love, that loves me and is really supportive of me and my decisions. I have good friends that I can talk to and spend time with and feel about myself. I have a good job with good benefits and decent pay - and I don't have to deliver pizza at night to make ends meet, or to get a head start on my Christmas shopping. So, to anyone who reads ths - I apologize for being so negative lately! I truly am blessed! I guess I just needed a reminder. Who knew it would come at a pizza place parking lot.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Frustrations...
I was recently told by a friend that I don't keep up with my blog... and she's right. I'm trying more now - but my life isn't very interesting, so you end up listening to my rants and raves instead :)
I'm slightly frustrated by a few things.... I think I'll make a brief list and let it be.
1. Finding out that people you once respected are nothing but self-absorbed, shallow, and immature.
2. Work - I am having trouble being motivated to deal with all the crap I have to do....
3. School - For the same reason I'm frustrated with Work.
4. People who invite everyone and their dog to their bridal/baby showers. My good friend Melly invited 22 - what a great sensible number! Who honestly invites 70-90???
5. Balancing my checkbook - yes, I have a great financial planner and I'm saving money and paying down debt, it just means that I don't have as much money left to do whatever I want with. Who knows when I'll be able to buy another purse!
So, life isn't very interesting right now - but I guess it could be worse! At least I'm happy and healthy right?! :)
I'm slightly frustrated by a few things.... I think I'll make a brief list and let it be.
1. Finding out that people you once respected are nothing but self-absorbed, shallow, and immature.
2. Work - I am having trouble being motivated to deal with all the crap I have to do....
3. School - For the same reason I'm frustrated with Work.
4. People who invite everyone and their dog to their bridal/baby showers. My good friend Melly invited 22 - what a great sensible number! Who honestly invites 70-90???
5. Balancing my checkbook - yes, I have a great financial planner and I'm saving money and paying down debt, it just means that I don't have as much money left to do whatever I want with. Who knows when I'll be able to buy another purse!
So, life isn't very interesting right now - but I guess it could be worse! At least I'm happy and healthy right?! :)
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Walking Fool.... or Fool for Walking?
This weekend I embarked on a journey... walking a half-marathon. Yes, I know that most normal people actually run them - however, my group of walkers and I determined that our goal was to finish, not to make a good time! That being said... this was my adventure...
We arrived at the starting line an hour and a half early - it was a requirement, I would have rather had the extra sleep. So of course, my anxiety increased every moment we stood there. Finally we were asked to line up according to time. In the front were the people who run less than a 6 minute mile - apparently there are people who can?! On the other hand I was in the very back with my friends.
We started off strong and with all of the adrenaline pumping and the feeling of it being a race, I had to keep telling myself not to run! The first mile was the longest mile of my entire life! I tried to keep focused on walking in the middle of the road since it was the most level - but I can't walk a straight line for the life of me. Finally at mile two I was walking better - although kept psyching myself out. At mile three I had finally fond my groove and was walking along pretty quickly. Quick enough to feel like I was progressing better than mile 1 anyway. But then my feet started to hurt. I had put some padding stuff on my feet to keep me from getting blisters because my blister-free socks do not work as advertised. In any case, the padding had twisted and was giving me blisters - imagine that! At mile 4, I had to take off my shoes and socks to take off the padding. I noticed a small amount of blood on my socks but wasn't worried - and off I went. I was trucking along with my friends making good time but at mile 7 my feet started to burn!
[disclaimer - this could get graphic]
By mile 8 I couldn't walk a step further. Now, I was insanely disappointed because I can walk 13 miles! I can - I have walked them before so I was sure I would finish! I wanted to walk and I wanted to finish - but I couldn't make myself. 5 miles was too far for me to go to be able to finish. My feet were burning and liquid filled and I couldn't go on so I had to take the walk of shame to the sweeper van and end my half marathon. I had a nice ride and a nice chat with the driver but when I had some time alone in my car as I waited for my friends to finish, I had to cry... I was so ashamed and disappointed in myself. I wanted to finish and I know I can... It just wasn't going to happen that day!
My friends are amazing and they finished! I was so proud of them! I was worried about them so I kept driving up and down the route to make sure they hadn't been hit by a car, or eaten by a rattle snake (I'm not sure if there are rattle snakes there - but there probably are!), or severely dehydrated! The girls were amazing - and I cannot tell you how insanely jealous I was! Good for them!
My feet are attached still - which is about as good as it gets... my poor little toesies were blistered and bloody (I warned you - graphic) - and I can't walk at my regular speed even because they are so sore and still blistered...
I learned an important lesson I think - Just because you can walk 13 miles doesn't mean you should! Wait, that's not what I meant - Just because I didn't make it this time, doesn't mean I can't make it. I'm already planning on trying one in Arizona in January (any excuse for a vacation right?!) - it depends on the school schedule! So until then, I rest my poor feet until they are healed - and then I begin the torture again! Does anyone have a cure for blisters???
We arrived at the starting line an hour and a half early - it was a requirement, I would have rather had the extra sleep. So of course, my anxiety increased every moment we stood there. Finally we were asked to line up according to time. In the front were the people who run less than a 6 minute mile - apparently there are people who can?! On the other hand I was in the very back with my friends.
We started off strong and with all of the adrenaline pumping and the feeling of it being a race, I had to keep telling myself not to run! The first mile was the longest mile of my entire life! I tried to keep focused on walking in the middle of the road since it was the most level - but I can't walk a straight line for the life of me. Finally at mile two I was walking better - although kept psyching myself out. At mile three I had finally fond my groove and was walking along pretty quickly. Quick enough to feel like I was progressing better than mile 1 anyway. But then my feet started to hurt. I had put some padding stuff on my feet to keep me from getting blisters because my blister-free socks do not work as advertised. In any case, the padding had twisted and was giving me blisters - imagine that! At mile 4, I had to take off my shoes and socks to take off the padding. I noticed a small amount of blood on my socks but wasn't worried - and off I went. I was trucking along with my friends making good time but at mile 7 my feet started to burn!
[disclaimer - this could get graphic]
By mile 8 I couldn't walk a step further. Now, I was insanely disappointed because I can walk 13 miles! I can - I have walked them before so I was sure I would finish! I wanted to walk and I wanted to finish - but I couldn't make myself. 5 miles was too far for me to go to be able to finish. My feet were burning and liquid filled and I couldn't go on so I had to take the walk of shame to the sweeper van and end my half marathon. I had a nice ride and a nice chat with the driver but when I had some time alone in my car as I waited for my friends to finish, I had to cry... I was so ashamed and disappointed in myself. I wanted to finish and I know I can... It just wasn't going to happen that day!
My friends are amazing and they finished! I was so proud of them! I was worried about them so I kept driving up and down the route to make sure they hadn't been hit by a car, or eaten by a rattle snake (I'm not sure if there are rattle snakes there - but there probably are!), or severely dehydrated! The girls were amazing - and I cannot tell you how insanely jealous I was! Good for them!
My feet are attached still - which is about as good as it gets... my poor little toesies were blistered and bloody (I warned you - graphic) - and I can't walk at my regular speed even because they are so sore and still blistered...
I learned an important lesson I think - Just because you can walk 13 miles doesn't mean you should! Wait, that's not what I meant - Just because I didn't make it this time, doesn't mean I can't make it. I'm already planning on trying one in Arizona in January (any excuse for a vacation right?!) - it depends on the school schedule! So until then, I rest my poor feet until they are healed - and then I begin the torture again! Does anyone have a cure for blisters???
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
AARP at 27???
Maybe it's just me, but I always thought AARP was for old people... So, imagine my surprise when I get the mail out of the mailbox last night and find an envelope addressed to me, from AARP. Hmm... I was curious so I opened it. At first I thought it was funny that they were offering me a membership at a discounted rate - and then I noticed a postcard I received about a Senior Financial Workshop - and then I got annoyed.
Really - I understand that people sell my information - I get that. But, if you're going to sell my information - or buy it ... please please please, get it right?! I'm 27!!!! I don't qualify for AARP or a Senior Financial Workshop - I'm still 38 years away from that - that's longer than I am old! How annoying is that?! VERY!!!
In any case, I was in need of some financial assistance - seeing as how I have lots of debt (who knew graduate school would be so expensive?), not much income, and the parents are trying to kick me out (not really, but it sounds more dramatic that way) - so I figured I needed some assistance. I met with a financial planner and decided to see how it was to work with him. The BEST decision of my life! Not only am I forced into being more disciplined, but I'm saving money... and making a serious dent in the debt! I'm SOOO glad I did this! If you need a financial advisor... let me know! I love mine!
Really - I understand that people sell my information - I get that. But, if you're going to sell my information - or buy it ... please please please, get it right?! I'm 27!!!! I don't qualify for AARP or a Senior Financial Workshop - I'm still 38 years away from that - that's longer than I am old! How annoying is that?! VERY!!!
In any case, I was in need of some financial assistance - seeing as how I have lots of debt (who knew graduate school would be so expensive?), not much income, and the parents are trying to kick me out (not really, but it sounds more dramatic that way) - so I figured I needed some assistance. I met with a financial planner and decided to see how it was to work with him. The BEST decision of my life! Not only am I forced into being more disciplined, but I'm saving money... and making a serious dent in the debt! I'm SOOO glad I did this! If you need a financial advisor... let me know! I love mine!
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Things I Love
For some reason I've felt very... what's the word... sentimental maybe... I'm not sure why! But maybe I'm growing up a bit - heaven forbid right?! In any case, it's made me want to just talk about some things that I love... some silly, some serious - yet all things that make me smile!
1. My nephew baby A! I love that boy so much! Nothing makes me happier than seeing him at my door, or him seeing me at his door and having his eyes light up and a huge smile spreads across his chubby little face as he screams and runs to me with his arms stretched out waiting for me to snuggle him! Anytime I need a picker-upper I go to see baby A. He makes me so happy!
2. The Fall! Today has been my favorite day for a long time weather wise! I love the crisp cool air and I love seeing the colors changing on the mountains outside my front door! I also love wearing sweaters! I'm sure lots of you remember the hideous gray sweater I have clung on to for the past 4 years ... well, to Leslie's delight - I bought a new one! Yes... it's gray, but it's much cuter! :)
3. Candy! I know it's lame! Especially because I'm living the WW life right?! But - I can still have a piece or two occasionally. I have just discovered the essence of fall time in one little hershey kiss.... a Pumpkin Spice hershey kiss! Believe it! Can I just say that they are amazing! This flavor in general is one of my favorite fall things - Krispy Kreme makes these donuts that are awesome - only this time of year. As well as my all time favorite Kashi pumpkin spice flax granola bars! Tasty! If I drank coffee - I'd try the pumpkin spice latte at the local coffee shop. The flavor is great, it's so warm and fall tasting. So yes, you can find this flavor at the nearest Target! (Unless you live in O-town where they do not have them. I bought them while at Target on a lunch break)
4. My church calling. Call me dumb please... who knew eight 3 and 4 year olds could make me so happy! My Sunday's are only exciting because I never know what's going to happen in primary! But, on Sunday we practiced songs for the upcoming Primary program (admittedly my favorite sunday of the year) and my cute little sunbeams try so hard to sing all the words! This sunday we practiced a song that isn't in the regular primary hymn book but it's one of my favorites for sure! The only parts my class knows are the beginning "If the Savior stood beside me would I" and that's where it ends until the VERY end when they sing at the top of their lungs "Watching over me." Bless their hearts, it makes me tear up every time. Plus, who wouldn't feel loved when you have to sit in the same spot every week so some clients can hold your hand while others sit on your lap and others have to sit right next to you and then confess their undying love to you... it's precious! I love it!
5. MUSIC! Big surprise right?! But really I love any kind of music. I have a confession to make - this morning on my drive into work - I turned on Christmas Music! I know - it's not even October yet... but, the weater warranted it! I only listen to it on cold days - until about November 1st and then it's on until I'm done with it! Some of the greatest music written is Christmas Music - why do we only listen to it for 25 days??? I do love it!
I think this fall will be good for me! Let's hope right?!
1. My nephew baby A! I love that boy so much! Nothing makes me happier than seeing him at my door, or him seeing me at his door and having his eyes light up and a huge smile spreads across his chubby little face as he screams and runs to me with his arms stretched out waiting for me to snuggle him! Anytime I need a picker-upper I go to see baby A. He makes me so happy!
2. The Fall! Today has been my favorite day for a long time weather wise! I love the crisp cool air and I love seeing the colors changing on the mountains outside my front door! I also love wearing sweaters! I'm sure lots of you remember the hideous gray sweater I have clung on to for the past 4 years ... well, to Leslie's delight - I bought a new one! Yes... it's gray, but it's much cuter! :)
3. Candy! I know it's lame! Especially because I'm living the WW life right?! But - I can still have a piece or two occasionally. I have just discovered the essence of fall time in one little hershey kiss.... a Pumpkin Spice hershey kiss! Believe it! Can I just say that they are amazing! This flavor in general is one of my favorite fall things - Krispy Kreme makes these donuts that are awesome - only this time of year. As well as my all time favorite Kashi pumpkin spice flax granola bars! Tasty! If I drank coffee - I'd try the pumpkin spice latte at the local coffee shop. The flavor is great, it's so warm and fall tasting. So yes, you can find this flavor at the nearest Target! (Unless you live in O-town where they do not have them. I bought them while at Target on a lunch break)
4. My church calling. Call me dumb please... who knew eight 3 and 4 year olds could make me so happy! My Sunday's are only exciting because I never know what's going to happen in primary! But, on Sunday we practiced songs for the upcoming Primary program (admittedly my favorite sunday of the year) and my cute little sunbeams try so hard to sing all the words! This sunday we practiced a song that isn't in the regular primary hymn book but it's one of my favorites for sure! The only parts my class knows are the beginning "If the Savior stood beside me would I" and that's where it ends until the VERY end when they sing at the top of their lungs "Watching over me." Bless their hearts, it makes me tear up every time. Plus, who wouldn't feel loved when you have to sit in the same spot every week so some clients can hold your hand while others sit on your lap and others have to sit right next to you and then confess their undying love to you... it's precious! I love it!
5. MUSIC! Big surprise right?! But really I love any kind of music. I have a confession to make - this morning on my drive into work - I turned on Christmas Music! I know - it's not even October yet... but, the weater warranted it! I only listen to it on cold days - until about November 1st and then it's on until I'm done with it! Some of the greatest music written is Christmas Music - why do we only listen to it for 25 days??? I do love it!
I think this fall will be good for me! Let's hope right?!
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
I know I know
It's been a while since I posted - but I've been feeling very blah lately - so for an update you get another lame list/tag... thanks for the tag K... I appreciate it!
What time did you get up this morning? 7:00a.m. - oops!
Diamonds or pearls? diamonds are good - but I'd love me some pearls
What was the last film that you saw at the cinema? Traitor
What is your favorite TV show? So you think you can dance
What do you usually have for breakfast? A granola bar and water usually
What is your middle name? Renee
What food do you dislike? Mushrooms
What is your favorite CD at the moment? Duffy right now - or RENT or Wicked... I'm a music whore what can I say!
What kind of car do you drive? a Honda Accord SE
Favorite sandwich? any that I don't have to make :)
What characteristic do you despise in others? Selfishness
Favorite item of clothing? used to be my maroon pants - member those Les? Now, my yoga pants
If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go? NYC!!! or Greece
Where would you retire to? to my Aunt's vacation home in Black Butte Oregon
What was your most recent memorable birthday? None were really exciting - this last one was pretty good though
Favorite sport to watch? football, baseball, hockey, basketball, softball - i like sports!
When is your birthday? August 7th
Are you a morning person or a night? I am neither
What is your shoe size? 10
Pets? A dog of course.... One day I'll get my own, until then - I share Toodles
Any new exciting news you'd like to share with us? I'm going to see Rent this month?!
What did you want to be when you were little? a backup singer for Barry Manilow - no lie!
How old are you today? 27
What is your favorite flower? calla lillies - hint hint
What is a day on your calendar that you are looking forward to? Christmas
What is your full name? Jennifer Renee Doty
What are you listening to right now? my office mate talk on the phone
What was the last thing you ate? a green skittle
Do you wish on stars? of course...
If you were a crayon, what color would you be? tickle me pink... i like that name
How is your weather right now? overcast, it's going to rain and I do love rain!!!
Last person you spoke to on the phone? Chris F.... gotta love work.
Favorite soft drink? Water - I'm off the sauce!!
Last place you ate out? Cheesecake Factory
Hair color? blonde for now
What was your favorite toy as a child? My barbies
Summer or winter? meh... both suck... winter??
Hugs or kisses? kisses
Chocolate or vanilla? chocolate for sure!
Coffee or tea? Meh... I like chamomille tea when I can't sleep
When was the last time you cried? I dunno - it's been a couple of weeks
What is under your bed? nothing!
What did you do last night? watched 3 episodes of my guilty pleasure show...
What are you afraid of? being bitten by a shark, or a rattlesnake!
Salty or sweet? Sweet.... but Salty certainly has it's place in my life
How many keys on your key ring? 1
How many years at your current job? 4
Favorite day of the week? Saturday - good friends, my baby, and fun!
How many towns have you lived in? a bazillion - yes, that's the real number
Do you make friends easily? I think so
Do you like finding out all this stuff about your friends? yes
What is the last book you read? Mama might be better off dead
Where is your cell phone? On my desk
Your significant other? No such person!
Your hair? blonde and straight in a ponytail today
Your mother? super smart, straightforward, a good friend and grandma
Your father? makes the best cookies, loving, gentle, such a great grandpa!!!
Your favorite thing? Music is my favorite thing!!!
Your dream last night? I didn't have one
Your favorite drink? I'm a water girl....
Your dream/goal? buy a place in 3 years... yes, I'll be 30... sick!
The room you’re in? My office
Your hobby? music, scrapbooking, crafts of any kind, friends, yoga... soon pole dancing
Your fear? spiders, sharks, snakes.... the 3 S's
Where do you want to be in 6 years? Doing something I love, and in my own casa.
What you’re not? a good lier!
Muffins? poppyseed
One of your wish list items? new camera
Where you grew up? everywhere, mostly in Utah though
The last thing you did? return some phone calls and emails
What are you wearing? a super cute new outfit!!! denim trousers, wine colored shirt, black jacket... I do love shopping
Favorite gadget? My pizzle (that was for Moosie) Ipod of course
Your pets? I love toodles - he loves my dad and friend more.... traitor
Your computer? laptop...
Your mood? bored
Missing someone? yes
Your car? again... Honda Accord SE
Something you’re not wearing? socks
Favorite store? Target... No really, I love target
Like someone? I like lots of people, but not in 'that' way....
Your favorite color? today it's tickle me pink
When is the last time you laughed? last night
What time did you get up this morning? 7:00a.m. - oops!
Diamonds or pearls? diamonds are good - but I'd love me some pearls
What was the last film that you saw at the cinema? Traitor
What is your favorite TV show? So you think you can dance
What do you usually have for breakfast? A granola bar and water usually
What is your middle name? Renee
What food do you dislike? Mushrooms
What is your favorite CD at the moment? Duffy right now - or RENT or Wicked... I'm a music whore what can I say!
What kind of car do you drive? a Honda Accord SE
Favorite sandwich? any that I don't have to make :)
What characteristic do you despise in others? Selfishness
Favorite item of clothing? used to be my maroon pants - member those Les? Now, my yoga pants
If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go? NYC!!! or Greece
Where would you retire to? to my Aunt's vacation home in Black Butte Oregon
What was your most recent memorable birthday? None were really exciting - this last one was pretty good though
Favorite sport to watch? football, baseball, hockey, basketball, softball - i like sports!
When is your birthday? August 7th
Are you a morning person or a night? I am neither
What is your shoe size? 10
Pets? A dog of course.... One day I'll get my own, until then - I share Toodles
Any new exciting news you'd like to share with us? I'm going to see Rent this month?!
What did you want to be when you were little? a backup singer for Barry Manilow - no lie!
How old are you today? 27
What is your favorite flower? calla lillies - hint hint
What is a day on your calendar that you are looking forward to? Christmas
What is your full name? Jennifer Renee Doty
What are you listening to right now? my office mate talk on the phone
What was the last thing you ate? a green skittle
Do you wish on stars? of course...
If you were a crayon, what color would you be? tickle me pink... i like that name
How is your weather right now? overcast, it's going to rain and I do love rain!!!
Last person you spoke to on the phone? Chris F.... gotta love work.
Favorite soft drink? Water - I'm off the sauce!!
Last place you ate out? Cheesecake Factory
Hair color? blonde for now
What was your favorite toy as a child? My barbies
Summer or winter? meh... both suck... winter??
Hugs or kisses? kisses
Chocolate or vanilla? chocolate for sure!
Coffee or tea? Meh... I like chamomille tea when I can't sleep
When was the last time you cried? I dunno - it's been a couple of weeks
What is under your bed? nothing!
What did you do last night? watched 3 episodes of my guilty pleasure show...
What are you afraid of? being bitten by a shark, or a rattlesnake!
Salty or sweet? Sweet.... but Salty certainly has it's place in my life
How many keys on your key ring? 1
How many years at your current job? 4
Favorite day of the week? Saturday - good friends, my baby, and fun!
How many towns have you lived in? a bazillion - yes, that's the real number
Do you make friends easily? I think so
Do you like finding out all this stuff about your friends? yes
What is the last book you read? Mama might be better off dead
Where is your cell phone? On my desk
Your significant other? No such person!
Your hair? blonde and straight in a ponytail today
Your mother? super smart, straightforward, a good friend and grandma
Your father? makes the best cookies, loving, gentle, such a great grandpa!!!
Your favorite thing? Music is my favorite thing!!!
Your dream last night? I didn't have one
Your favorite drink? I'm a water girl....
Your dream/goal? buy a place in 3 years... yes, I'll be 30... sick!
The room you’re in? My office
Your hobby? music, scrapbooking, crafts of any kind, friends, yoga... soon pole dancing
Your fear? spiders, sharks, snakes.... the 3 S's
Where do you want to be in 6 years? Doing something I love, and in my own casa.
What you’re not? a good lier!
Muffins? poppyseed
One of your wish list items? new camera
Where you grew up? everywhere, mostly in Utah though
The last thing you did? return some phone calls and emails
What are you wearing? a super cute new outfit!!! denim trousers, wine colored shirt, black jacket... I do love shopping
Favorite gadget? My pizzle (that was for Moosie) Ipod of course
Your pets? I love toodles - he loves my dad and friend more.... traitor
Your computer? laptop...
Your mood? bored
Missing someone? yes
Your car? again... Honda Accord SE
Something you’re not wearing? socks
Favorite store? Target... No really, I love target
Like someone? I like lots of people, but not in 'that' way....
Your favorite color? today it's tickle me pink
When is the last time you laughed? last night
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
21 hours
Not that anyone is counting... but yes, just less than 21 hours until the beginning of the last year of grad school! Yay! Still no practicum - but that's another blog for another day!
I'm sitting at work wondering why I'm here! I'm exhausted because I only got 3 1/2 hours of sleep last night! For some reason I just couldn't sleep! Hopefully tonight I'll sleep well! I have to look alert for my first day of class right?! Ugh! I'm dreading it!
I think I'm just feeling overwhelmed right now! I need a vacation! I'm sick of work, I'm sick of thinking about my practicum - or lack thereof! I'm sick of boys! I'm sick of people annoying me! Plus, my throat hurts! I'm such a whiney baby! I am even missing lunch with friends because I don't feel good (or social for that matter). but mostly because I don't feel good and I don't want the little kids who are inevitably there - or the prego lady to get sick! Besides, M and I have seen each other enough this month... dang clients! :) Kidding M - you know i love seeing you! Maybe a vacation will brighten my mood and make me happy! Oh right - no time or money for a vacation! Maybe a new purse or sunglasses will do the same! Hmm.... I guess we'll see won't we!
On another note - my babies started school today! No, I don't have kids - my youngest siblings whom I practially raised started college today! Oh the sadness! It makes me feel old having the twins in college now! Imagine how it will be when Baby A goes to college! I'll have a nervous breakdown - but that's still another 17 years away! Luckily!
I think I'll get some paperwork done - go to a meeting - and then depending on my ambition level, work at home or back at the office! As long as I can get some rest tonight! Can't be late for my first day of school!
I'm sitting at work wondering why I'm here! I'm exhausted because I only got 3 1/2 hours of sleep last night! For some reason I just couldn't sleep! Hopefully tonight I'll sleep well! I have to look alert for my first day of class right?! Ugh! I'm dreading it!
I think I'm just feeling overwhelmed right now! I need a vacation! I'm sick of work, I'm sick of thinking about my practicum - or lack thereof! I'm sick of boys! I'm sick of people annoying me! Plus, my throat hurts! I'm such a whiney baby! I am even missing lunch with friends because I don't feel good (or social for that matter). but mostly because I don't feel good and I don't want the little kids who are inevitably there - or the prego lady to get sick! Besides, M and I have seen each other enough this month... dang clients! :) Kidding M - you know i love seeing you! Maybe a vacation will brighten my mood and make me happy! Oh right - no time or money for a vacation! Maybe a new purse or sunglasses will do the same! Hmm.... I guess we'll see won't we!
On another note - my babies started school today! No, I don't have kids - my youngest siblings whom I practially raised started college today! Oh the sadness! It makes me feel old having the twins in college now! Imagine how it will be when Baby A goes to college! I'll have a nervous breakdown - but that's still another 17 years away! Luckily!
I think I'll get some paperwork done - go to a meeting - and then depending on my ambition level, work at home or back at the office! As long as I can get some rest tonight! Can't be late for my first day of school!
Thursday, August 21, 2008
Good 'Ole Jack....
So TM and I went to see Jack Johnson on Monday. Initially I was really excited, until I realized that I'm an idiot and got lawn seats!!! I don't sit on the lawn! So we bought a blanket and off we went to enjoy some Jack Johnson!
We found a nice spot towards the back in the shade since it was about 6:30 and still pretty toasty. The concert started at 7 with two opening bands that I hadn't heard of and didn't really care for all that much - and Jack didn't even come on until 9 ish. By then I was kind of bored - okay really bored (I spent two hours talking with TM, watching people while playing at least T didn't wear that!, and playing blockbreaker on my phone)! TM was bored too - I'm pretty sure she took five hundred pictures of her eyeballs!
Jack finally came on stage - and what a downer! There was no crowd interaction, I couldn't see much cause I was too bored to stand (is that even really possible?), plus EVERYWHERE there were couples that were spooning, getting busy under blankets, and assuming the annoying we "love each other at concerts pose." If you don't know what this is let me describe it - He stands behind her with his pelvis jammed into her butt - with his arms wrapped around her while trying to inconspicuously grope her at the same time as they sway to the music.... blah! On top of that, there were lots of people smoking pot. So, TM and I left early! Yes, before intermission even! We left around 10 ish. I never leave a concert early - but it would have been more entertaining if I were listening to him on a CD... so we left. (TM said she would have considered staying if we could have at least gotten a good contact high - no such luck) What is this world coming to when you have to leave a concert early because you're so bored??? Oh well - could have been worse!
7 days until school starts... still no practicum! A bunch of kids on my caseload are freaking out - of course right before school starts..... Both - definitely worse than leaving a concert early!
We found a nice spot towards the back in the shade since it was about 6:30 and still pretty toasty. The concert started at 7 with two opening bands that I hadn't heard of and didn't really care for all that much - and Jack didn't even come on until 9 ish. By then I was kind of bored - okay really bored (I spent two hours talking with TM, watching people while playing at least T didn't wear that!, and playing blockbreaker on my phone)! TM was bored too - I'm pretty sure she took five hundred pictures of her eyeballs!
Jack finally came on stage - and what a downer! There was no crowd interaction, I couldn't see much cause I was too bored to stand (is that even really possible?), plus EVERYWHERE there were couples that were spooning, getting busy under blankets, and assuming the annoying we "love each other at concerts pose." If you don't know what this is let me describe it - He stands behind her with his pelvis jammed into her butt - with his arms wrapped around her while trying to inconspicuously grope her at the same time as they sway to the music.... blah! On top of that, there were lots of people smoking pot. So, TM and I left early! Yes, before intermission even! We left around 10 ish. I never leave a concert early - but it would have been more entertaining if I were listening to him on a CD... so we left. (TM said she would have considered staying if we could have at least gotten a good contact high - no such luck) What is this world coming to when you have to leave a concert early because you're so bored??? Oh well - could have been worse!
7 days until school starts... still no practicum! A bunch of kids on my caseload are freaking out - of course right before school starts..... Both - definitely worse than leaving a concert early!
Monday, August 18, 2008
Cha Cha Cha - Charmin!
Well, this weekend was fun I guess. I spent a lot of time with friends and family which is always how I like to spend my time. Shopping for a back to school box for my little Sis on a mission... PS - Wal-Mart has these hilarious Chuck Norris folders... I bought 7 for her! "Chuck Norris can lead a horse to water and make it drink." Why am I so amused by those? I'm pretty sure he's like 70! Anyway - I watched a movie with a friend, went on a Shamanic journey, and went on a "drive."
My friend B called this weekend and asked if I wanted to go on a drive - I said sure why not and got ready to go. Not exactly sure where we would be going but knowing it would be up a canyon, I decided to pack some snacks - this whole ww thing has increased my appetite so I eat more frequently. I brought water, goldfish crackers, and some twizzlers. Anyway, when I think of going on a drive, I think driving up to Heber - stopping at Grannys for shakes, and coming home. Apparently this is not what B had in mind. We went out Spanish Fork Canyon to this road called Skyline Drive where I was told we were taking the long way to Ephraim. (PS - who in their right mind wants to go to ephraim for fun???) So off we go - little did I know Skyline Drive, happens to be a dirt road on the top of some mountain ridge! So we were off roading in the truck. It started out fine - I didn't mind and the scenery was beautiful! But it was LONG! I don't really have that long of an attention span in the first place, let alone to drive hours on a dirt road! Anyway, it was bumpy and the next time we go on a "drive" i'll be wearing a sports bra over my regular bra - cause the ladies just didn't enjoy themselves!
The interesting part was that it's apparently Bow Hunt season... I saw hundreds of hunters with their cross bows and camo clothing... and a few with camo face paint - they're the real die hards! They all had their 4-wheelers and binoculars so they could find some poor unsuspecting deer to shoot - with a bow! If I were a deer I'd prefer a gun... more of a quick death - a bow? really?! Anyway, so that was interesting - the hunters were everywhere!
Meanwhile, I'm getting that familiar sensation that I'm going to have to pee pretty quick. We stop somewhere for B to pee and he asks if I need to go - I tell him no way and I'll wait til we make it down figuring surely we are close to the city! An hour later I can't wait anymore - I've gotta go! So, we find a small spot to pull over on - I wait for some 4-wheelers to pass and I hop out of the truck, tell B to move his side mirror so he can't see me and pee as quickly as possible right by the truck! Lucky for me, B carries charmin in his truck at all times - and I carry Purel... Score! Unlucky for me - I hate peeing outside! There is a reason toilets were put on this earth and I'm pretty sure it's so that girls don't have to squat and hold their pants at the same time so they don't pee all over themselves - OUTSIDE! Some poor hunter I'm sure caught an eye full with his binoculars! 'Oy!
It was a good thing I brought snacks because the drive ended up being 4 1/2 hours long! UGH! My butt hurt after the drive... it can only handle so much dirt road ya know?! But otherwise, it was a pretty nice drive - the scenery was great - the peeing, not so much! :)
My friend B called this weekend and asked if I wanted to go on a drive - I said sure why not and got ready to go. Not exactly sure where we would be going but knowing it would be up a canyon, I decided to pack some snacks - this whole ww thing has increased my appetite so I eat more frequently. I brought water, goldfish crackers, and some twizzlers. Anyway, when I think of going on a drive, I think driving up to Heber - stopping at Grannys for shakes, and coming home. Apparently this is not what B had in mind. We went out Spanish Fork Canyon to this road called Skyline Drive where I was told we were taking the long way to Ephraim. (PS - who in their right mind wants to go to ephraim for fun???) So off we go - little did I know Skyline Drive, happens to be a dirt road on the top of some mountain ridge! So we were off roading in the truck. It started out fine - I didn't mind and the scenery was beautiful! But it was LONG! I don't really have that long of an attention span in the first place, let alone to drive hours on a dirt road! Anyway, it was bumpy and the next time we go on a "drive" i'll be wearing a sports bra over my regular bra - cause the ladies just didn't enjoy themselves!
The interesting part was that it's apparently Bow Hunt season... I saw hundreds of hunters with their cross bows and camo clothing... and a few with camo face paint - they're the real die hards! They all had their 4-wheelers and binoculars so they could find some poor unsuspecting deer to shoot - with a bow! If I were a deer I'd prefer a gun... more of a quick death - a bow? really?! Anyway, so that was interesting - the hunters were everywhere!
Meanwhile, I'm getting that familiar sensation that I'm going to have to pee pretty quick. We stop somewhere for B to pee and he asks if I need to go - I tell him no way and I'll wait til we make it down figuring surely we are close to the city! An hour later I can't wait anymore - I've gotta go! So, we find a small spot to pull over on - I wait for some 4-wheelers to pass and I hop out of the truck, tell B to move his side mirror so he can't see me and pee as quickly as possible right by the truck! Lucky for me, B carries charmin in his truck at all times - and I carry Purel... Score! Unlucky for me - I hate peeing outside! There is a reason toilets were put on this earth and I'm pretty sure it's so that girls don't have to squat and hold their pants at the same time so they don't pee all over themselves - OUTSIDE! Some poor hunter I'm sure caught an eye full with his binoculars! 'Oy!
It was a good thing I brought snacks because the drive ended up being 4 1/2 hours long! UGH! My butt hurt after the drive... it can only handle so much dirt road ya know?! But otherwise, it was a pretty nice drive - the scenery was great - the peeing, not so much! :)
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
15 days and counting
Yes that's right - 15 days until I am sitting in the hideously uncomfortable desks of the social work building for the last year of my Masters Degree Program.... Am I excited? Of course. Am I nervous? Sure. Am I frustrated? YES! Why you may ask? It's not like I haven't done this before - I am a second year after all. My frustration stems from something bigger - like the fact that there's 15 days until class and I still don't have a practicum site. Yes, slightly stressful! Here's the skinny on that...
I've been in contact with my practicum advisor and haven't been able to get a hold of the practicum person I was supposed to meet with to arrange everything. Well, finally she makes contact with the practicum office after several calls from both me and them. Come to find out - she gave my practicum away.... to a BYU student. Is that really even fair? No - it's totally not, and I'm not completely to blame! Sure, I should have called my practicum advisor before the beginning of July to say that she never returned my phone calls. But she should have been responsible and called me to tell me she had a different number - afterall, she had all of my contact information! The thing that really irks me is the fact that it's a BYU student. Already the U of U has very few practicum placements that actually pay, this one being one of the highest (yes, i'd love to give you a psych eval for $8.00 an hour...) - yet all of the BYU practicums are required to be paid. So, a BYU student swoops in and steals my practicum along with the stipend. NOT FAIR!
So my practicum advisor tells me that I can still go there and work - they'll find something for me to do I'm sure - and I'll be doing it for free! Right - how am I supposed to feel about that?! Well, i'm not sure how i'm supposed to feel - but I can certainly tell you how I do feel. I have mixed emotions. Part of me wonders if this is a blessing in disguise... but another part of me is frustrated because it was a completely unfair process. I was the only one who was not interviewed for the practicum, not because of any fault of my own, but because the lady cancelled on me and never returned my phone calls to reschedule... How unfair is that! So I was automatically ousted out of the practicum by May and nobody told me! Part of me wants to go and work there - work hard and show them what they would have missed out on, even if it is for free. But another part of me, doesn't want to feel like the "charity case" that they "had" to provide a practicum for. I mean, nobody really wants to feel like that right?! I hate this!
Luckily, my mother is an LCSW and a professor at UVU - so she is trying to find something for me because my practicum advisor does not see the seriousness in this situation! Obviously! So, for the next 15 days I wait, hope that I get a practicum, and try not to drive myself crazy! It should be fun - or at least interesting!
In other news.... I did hit my 10% a couple of weeks ago and got my fabulous pink coach purse. It's wonderful! I also had my birthday last week... Meh, 27 feels like 26! Luckily, I have some great friends who made my birthday enjoyable! D texted me on my birthday and I have been an emotional wreck ever since! Why does he do that to me??? I'm trying to hold it together without consoling myself with food - a lot of good that does when I have ice cream and a giant cookie all in the same day! Ugh! I hate being an emotional eater! And - my work schedule started four 10 hour days.... I have mixed feelings. I love knowing I don't have to work on Fridays - but i have class and hopefully one day a practicum! But I don't really like the whole be at the office at 7 thing... Okay, let's be honest - I'm not really good at it either. If i'm here by 8, I call that a success! And, I have a secret crush on a 45 year old - I know what you're thinking but I JUST found out he was 45 - I thought he was 35!!! Imagine my surprise! Otherwise, dating is worthless and I pretty much hate it!
I'll try and be more diligent in my blogging.... We'll see how that goes! :)
I've been in contact with my practicum advisor and haven't been able to get a hold of the practicum person I was supposed to meet with to arrange everything. Well, finally she makes contact with the practicum office after several calls from both me and them. Come to find out - she gave my practicum away.... to a BYU student. Is that really even fair? No - it's totally not, and I'm not completely to blame! Sure, I should have called my practicum advisor before the beginning of July to say that she never returned my phone calls. But she should have been responsible and called me to tell me she had a different number - afterall, she had all of my contact information! The thing that really irks me is the fact that it's a BYU student. Already the U of U has very few practicum placements that actually pay, this one being one of the highest (yes, i'd love to give you a psych eval for $8.00 an hour...) - yet all of the BYU practicums are required to be paid. So, a BYU student swoops in and steals my practicum along with the stipend. NOT FAIR!
So my practicum advisor tells me that I can still go there and work - they'll find something for me to do I'm sure - and I'll be doing it for free! Right - how am I supposed to feel about that?! Well, i'm not sure how i'm supposed to feel - but I can certainly tell you how I do feel. I have mixed emotions. Part of me wonders if this is a blessing in disguise... but another part of me is frustrated because it was a completely unfair process. I was the only one who was not interviewed for the practicum, not because of any fault of my own, but because the lady cancelled on me and never returned my phone calls to reschedule... How unfair is that! So I was automatically ousted out of the practicum by May and nobody told me! Part of me wants to go and work there - work hard and show them what they would have missed out on, even if it is for free. But another part of me, doesn't want to feel like the "charity case" that they "had" to provide a practicum for. I mean, nobody really wants to feel like that right?! I hate this!
Luckily, my mother is an LCSW and a professor at UVU - so she is trying to find something for me because my practicum advisor does not see the seriousness in this situation! Obviously! So, for the next 15 days I wait, hope that I get a practicum, and try not to drive myself crazy! It should be fun - or at least interesting!
In other news.... I did hit my 10% a couple of weeks ago and got my fabulous pink coach purse. It's wonderful! I also had my birthday last week... Meh, 27 feels like 26! Luckily, I have some great friends who made my birthday enjoyable! D texted me on my birthday and I have been an emotional wreck ever since! Why does he do that to me??? I'm trying to hold it together without consoling myself with food - a lot of good that does when I have ice cream and a giant cookie all in the same day! Ugh! I hate being an emotional eater! And - my work schedule started four 10 hour days.... I have mixed feelings. I love knowing I don't have to work on Fridays - but i have class and hopefully one day a practicum! But I don't really like the whole be at the office at 7 thing... Okay, let's be honest - I'm not really good at it either. If i'm here by 8, I call that a success! And, I have a secret crush on a 45 year old - I know what you're thinking but I JUST found out he was 45 - I thought he was 35!!! Imagine my surprise! Otherwise, dating is worthless and I pretty much hate it!
I'll try and be more diligent in my blogging.... We'll see how that goes! :)
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Random Fun
A friend tagged me on this one and I thought it was interesting.... :) I won't tag you - but feel free to do this as well!
200 have and have nots
All you have to do is copy the list and bold what you have done. If you want to join in copy this & highlight the ones you've done...200 Have and Have nots!
1. Touched an iceberg
2. Slept under the stars
3. Been a part of a hockey fight
4. Changed a baby's diaper
5. Watched a meteor shower
6. Given more than you can afford to charity
7. Swam with wild dolphins
8. Climbed a mountain
9. Held a tarantula
10. Said "I love you" and meant it - once
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea
14. Stayed up all night long and watched the sun rise
15. Seen the Northern Lights
16. Gone to a huge sports game
17. Walked the stairs to the top of the Statue of Liberty
18. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
19. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
20. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
21. Had a pillow fight
22. Bet on a winning horse
23. Taken a sick day when you're not ill
24. Built a snow fort
25. Held a lamb
26. Gone skinny dipping
27. Taken an ice cold bath
28. Had a meaningful conversation with a beggar
29. Seen a total eclipse
30. Ridden a roller coaster
31. Hit a home run
32. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
33. Adopted an accent for fun
34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
35. Felt very happy about your life, even for just a moment
36. Loved your job 90% of the time
37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
38. Watched wild whales
39. Gone rock climbing
40. Gone on a walk on the beach
41. Gone sky diving
42. Visited Ireland
43. Ever bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant
44. Visited India
45. Bench-pressed your own weight
46. Milked a cow
47. Alphabetized your personal files
48. Ever worn a superhero costume
49. Sung karaoke
50. Lounged around in bed all day
51. Gone scuba diving
52. Kissed in the rain
53. Played in the mud
54. Gone to a drive-in theater -
55. Done something you should regret
56. Visited the Great Wall of China
57. Started a business-
58. Taken a martial arts class
59. Been in a movie
60. Gone without food for 3 days
61. Made cookies from scratch
62. Won first prize in a costume contest
63. Got flowers for no reason
64. Been in a combat zone
65. Spoken more than one language fluently
66. Gotten into a fight while attempting to defend someone
67. Bounced a check
68. Read - and understood - your credit report
69. Recently bought and played with a favorite childhood toy
70. Found out something significant that your ancestors did
71. Called or written your Congress person
72. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
73. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
74. Helped an animal give birth
75. Been fired or laid off from a job
76. Won money
77. Broken a bone
78. Ridden a motorcycle
79. Driven any land vehicle at a speed of greater than 100 mph
80. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
81. Slept through an entire flight: takeoff, flight, and landing
82. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
83. Eaten sushi
84. Had your picture in the newspaper
85. Read The Bible cover to cover
86. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about
87. Gotten someone fired for their actions-
88. gone back to school
89. Changed your name
90. Caught a fly in the air with your bare hands
91. Eaten fried green tomatoes
92. Read The Iliad
93. Taught yourself an art from scratch
94. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
95. Apologized to someone years after inflicting the hurt
96. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
97. Been elected to public office
98. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream
99. Had to put someone you love into hospice care?
100. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you
101. Had a booth at a street fair
102. Dyed your hair
103. Been a DJ
104. Rocked a baby to sleep
105. Ever dropped a cat from a high place to see if it really lands on all four
106. Raked your carpet
107.Brought out the best in people
108.Brought out the worst in people
109. Worn a mood ring
110. Ridden a horse
111. Carved an animal from a piece of wood or bar of soap
112.Cooked a dish where four people asked for the recipe
113. Buried a child
114.Gone to a Broadway (or equivalent to your country) play
115. Been inside the pyramids
116.Shot a basketball into a basket
117. Danced at a disco
118. Played in a band
119. Shot a bird
120. Gone to an arboretum
121.Tutored someone
122.Ridden a train
123. Brought an old fad back into style
124. Eaten caviar
125.Let a salesman talk you into something you didn’t need
126. Ridden an giraffe or elephant
127. Published a book
128.Pieced a quilt
129.Lived in an historic place
130.Acted in a play or performed on a stage
131.Asked for a raise
132. Made a hole-in-one - goofey golfing
133. Gone deep sea fishing
134.Gone roller skating
135. Run a marathon - my first halfer is in october
136. Learned to surf
137. Invented something
138. Flown first class
139. Spent the night in a 5-star luxury suite
140. Flown in a helicopter over the Grand Canyon
141. Visited Africa
142. Sang a solo
143. Gone spelunking
144.Learned how to take a compliment
145. Written a love-story
146. Seen Michelangelo’s David
147. Had your portrait painted
148.Written a fan letter - JTT
149. Spent the night in something haunted
150. Owned a St. Bernard or Great Dane
151. Ran away
152. Learned to juggle
153. Been a boss--I've been bossy: does that count?
154. Sat on a jury
155.Lied about your weight
156.Gone on a diet
157. Found an arrowhead or a gold nugget
158.Written a poem
159. Carried your lunch in a lunchbox
160. Gotten food poisoning
161. Gone on a service, humanitarian or religious mission
162. Hiked the Grand Canyon
163.Sat on a park bench and fed the ducks
164. Gone to the opera
165.Gotten a letter from someone famous
166. Worn knickers
167. Ridden in a limousine
168. Attended the Olympics
169. Can hula or waltz
170. Read a half dozen Nancy Drew or Hardy Boys books
171. Been stuck in an elevator
172. Had a revelatory dream
173. Thought you might crash in an airplane
174. Had a song dedicated to you on the radio or at a concert
175. Saved someone’s life
176. Eaten raw whale
177.Know how to tat, smock or do needlepoint
178.Laughed till your side hurt
179. Straddled the equator
180. Taken a photograph of something other than people that is worth framing
181. Gone to a Shakespeare Festival
182. Sent a message in a bottle
183. Spent the night in a hostel-hotel?
184.Been a cashier
185. Seen geyser erupt
186. Joined a union
187.Donated blood
188.Built a campfire
189. Kept a blog
190. Had hives
191. Worn custom made shoes or boots
192. Made a PowerPoint presentation
193. Taken a Hunter’s Safety Course
194. Served at a soup kitchen
195. Conquered the Rubik’s cube
196. Know CPR
197. Ridden in or owned a convertible
198.Found a long lost friend
199. Helped solve a crime
200. Responded to a NJP newsletter--what is that?
200 have and have nots
All you have to do is copy the list and bold what you have done. If you want to join in copy this & highlight the ones you've done...200 Have and Have nots!
1. Touched an iceberg
2. Slept under the stars
3. Been a part of a hockey fight
4. Changed a baby's diaper
5. Watched a meteor shower
6. Given more than you can afford to charity
7. Swam with wild dolphins
8. Climbed a mountain
9. Held a tarantula
10. Said "I love you" and meant it - once
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea
14. Stayed up all night long and watched the sun rise
15. Seen the Northern Lights
16. Gone to a huge sports game
17. Walked the stairs to the top of the Statue of Liberty
18. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
19. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
20. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
21. Had a pillow fight
22. Bet on a winning horse
23. Taken a sick day when you're not ill
24. Built a snow fort
25. Held a lamb
26. Gone skinny dipping
27. Taken an ice cold bath
28. Had a meaningful conversation with a beggar
29. Seen a total eclipse
30. Ridden a roller coaster
31. Hit a home run
32. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
33. Adopted an accent for fun
34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
35. Felt very happy about your life, even for just a moment
36. Loved your job 90% of the time
37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
38. Watched wild whales
39. Gone rock climbing
40. Gone on a walk on the beach
41. Gone sky diving
42. Visited Ireland
43. Ever bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant
44. Visited India
45. Bench-pressed your own weight
46. Milked a cow
47. Alphabetized your personal files
48. Ever worn a superhero costume
49. Sung karaoke
50. Lounged around in bed all day
51. Gone scuba diving
52. Kissed in the rain
53. Played in the mud
54. Gone to a drive-in theater -
55. Done something you should regret
56. Visited the Great Wall of China
57. Started a business-
58. Taken a martial arts class
59. Been in a movie
60. Gone without food for 3 days
61. Made cookies from scratch
62. Won first prize in a costume contest
63. Got flowers for no reason
64. Been in a combat zone
65. Spoken more than one language fluently
66. Gotten into a fight while attempting to defend someone
67. Bounced a check
68. Read - and understood - your credit report
69. Recently bought and played with a favorite childhood toy
70. Found out something significant that your ancestors did
71. Called or written your Congress person
72. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
73. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
74. Helped an animal give birth
75. Been fired or laid off from a job
76. Won money
77. Broken a bone
78. Ridden a motorcycle
79. Driven any land vehicle at a speed of greater than 100 mph
80. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
81. Slept through an entire flight: takeoff, flight, and landing
82. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
83. Eaten sushi
84. Had your picture in the newspaper
85. Read The Bible cover to cover
86. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about
87. Gotten someone fired for their actions-
88. gone back to school
89. Changed your name
90. Caught a fly in the air with your bare hands
91. Eaten fried green tomatoes
92. Read The Iliad
93. Taught yourself an art from scratch
94. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
95. Apologized to someone years after inflicting the hurt
96. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
97. Been elected to public office
98. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream
99. Had to put someone you love into hospice care?
100. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you
101. Had a booth at a street fair
102. Dyed your hair
103. Been a DJ
104. Rocked a baby to sleep
105. Ever dropped a cat from a high place to see if it really lands on all four
106. Raked your carpet
107.Brought out the best in people
108.Brought out the worst in people
109. Worn a mood ring
110. Ridden a horse
111. Carved an animal from a piece of wood or bar of soap
112.Cooked a dish where four people asked for the recipe
113. Buried a child
114.Gone to a Broadway (or equivalent to your country) play
115. Been inside the pyramids
116.Shot a basketball into a basket
117. Danced at a disco
118. Played in a band
119. Shot a bird
120. Gone to an arboretum
121.Tutored someone
122.Ridden a train
123. Brought an old fad back into style
124. Eaten caviar
125.Let a salesman talk you into something you didn’t need
126. Ridden an giraffe or elephant
127. Published a book
128.Pieced a quilt
129.Lived in an historic place
130.Acted in a play or performed on a stage
131.Asked for a raise
132. Made a hole-in-one - goofey golfing
133. Gone deep sea fishing
134.Gone roller skating
135. Run a marathon - my first halfer is in october
136. Learned to surf
137. Invented something
138. Flown first class
139. Spent the night in a 5-star luxury suite
140. Flown in a helicopter over the Grand Canyon
141. Visited Africa
142. Sang a solo
143. Gone spelunking
144.Learned how to take a compliment
145. Written a love-story
146. Seen Michelangelo’s David
147. Had your portrait painted
148.Written a fan letter - JTT
149. Spent the night in something haunted
150. Owned a St. Bernard or Great Dane
151. Ran away
152. Learned to juggle
153. Been a boss--I've been bossy: does that count?
154. Sat on a jury
155.Lied about your weight
156.Gone on a diet
157. Found an arrowhead or a gold nugget
158.Written a poem
159. Carried your lunch in a lunchbox
160. Gotten food poisoning
161. Gone on a service, humanitarian or religious mission
162. Hiked the Grand Canyon
163.Sat on a park bench and fed the ducks
164. Gone to the opera
165.Gotten a letter from someone famous
166. Worn knickers
167. Ridden in a limousine
168. Attended the Olympics
169. Can hula or waltz
170. Read a half dozen Nancy Drew or Hardy Boys books
171. Been stuck in an elevator
172. Had a revelatory dream
173. Thought you might crash in an airplane
174. Had a song dedicated to you on the radio or at a concert
175. Saved someone’s life
176. Eaten raw whale
177.Know how to tat, smock or do needlepoint
178.Laughed till your side hurt
179. Straddled the equator
180. Taken a photograph of something other than people that is worth framing
181. Gone to a Shakespeare Festival
182. Sent a message in a bottle
183. Spent the night in a hostel-hotel?
184.Been a cashier
185. Seen geyser erupt
186. Joined a union
187.Donated blood
188.Built a campfire
189. Kept a blog
190. Had hives
191. Worn custom made shoes or boots
192. Made a PowerPoint presentation
193. Taken a Hunter’s Safety Course
194. Served at a soup kitchen
195. Conquered the Rubik’s cube
196. Know CPR
197. Ridden in or owned a convertible
198.Found a long lost friend
199. Helped solve a crime
200. Responded to a NJP newsletter--what is that?
Friday, July 11, 2008
My New Love!!!
Yes - I'm happy to admit I have a new love... other than purses! It's Yoga! How weird is that?! I absolutely love doing yoga! Here's the deal... This summer my goal was to try some different activities that would help me get in some exercising but not completely bore me. So I signed up for and am trying a lot of things. Golf, Belly Dancing (no laughing), Tai Chi, Tennis, and Yoga. I signed up for Yoga 101 at a local studio (Flow Yoga - I HIGHLY recommend them!) and started three weeks ago. The first class was a killer - I'm not all that flexible or anything but I wanted to try every pose and I could actually do them all! So I decided to invest in my favorite part of a new sport or activity - buying all of the accessories that make it an attractive sport. So I got a cute mat and some cute yoga clothes and I was off to another class. This time I realized I needed either a better mat or a towel because I kept slipping in my downward dog. So, I bought a Yoga Towel.... it was quite the investment for me because who spends that much money on a towel?? Anyway - it was AMAZING! Definitely worth every penny! I was so proud of myself because I was kicking butt in the class! My downward dog doesn't slip anymore! All of my other poses are doing really well too and I'm proud of myself for taking on this new adventure! So my 101 class is done and I took a basic flow class last night. For those who think doing a bunch of hokey poses like downward dog, warrior, tree, and stuff like that - is not exercise??? I have news for you - I worked muscles I didn't know I had (maybe I don't and that's why they're a little sore) and boy was I sweating... Gross I know - anything that involves sweat is an immediate turn off for me - BUT - I LOVE YOGA! How did I not find this magical exercise sooner??? I did purchase my last accessory - a yoga bag - gotta love target right?! So after my unlimited pass expires I have to purchase another pass but it will definitely be worth it! I'm already feeling changes in my body! Plus, at the beginning of each class we set an intention for the class. During the 101 class the teacher would set one vocally so we could use hers or one we wanted. My last day of class the teacher set one of contentment and her mantra (so to speak) was "You are enough, You have enough & It is enough". That completely stuck with me! I can't get it out of my mind and I don't want to! I need to get that in vinyl for my bedroom and office walls! I think it's one of the best things I've gotten from yoga! Yay for yoga! If anyone wants to join me for a class - feel free! It's amazing - and for you pregos out there - they totally have prenatal yoga! Maybe one day I'll get to experience that class... until then It's all about the Flow!
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
Motivation for Change!
So I guess it's time for me to admit it..... Time to suck it up and go public.... The truth is I need some help - so rather than keeping it a secret - here it goes!!! I joined weight watchers in the middle to end of February. Yes I did - and I'm so glad I did. I know you're thinking "she's trying yet another diet, blah blah blah" but this time is different - hopefully! I know the first thing people want to know is how much have I lost. Well let me tell you that depends on what day you're asking - actually, what week. Here's the problem - I've lost 28.8 pounds. Great right?! Right - except that then I keep gaining 2 1/2 pounds so my weight loss keeps fluctuating. I keep gaining and re-losing the same 3 pounds and I'm really frustrated by it. And I have a theory.... I know, me and my lame theories.
Every time i start a new weight loss program I think "this is it, the one that's going to work for me!" And approximatelyl 25 pounds later I think I'm doing well - fall off the bandwagon for a little and it's all downhill from there! I gain back those 25 and then some. Why do I do that? Because I'm dumb... That's not my theory. My theory is I like to sabatoge things in my life. Things start to go well and I think- gosh this is going really well, I wonder how i could screw it up?! And I always find a great way to do it! Not just in my weight loss efforts - but in my friendships - relationships - and other ships.... Okay maybe that's an exaggeration. The thing is that I think I was so excited about weight watchers and the first week I lost an astonishing 10 pounds and then the next week I lost 0.4 - who knew you could lose 0.4 pounds. Anyway - I think I'm just discouraged because even with the 25 that I've lost and kept off - I'm not really seeing any changes in my body. Sure I bought one size smaller pants - but the thing is - they're still big pants - and you'd think after 25 pounds you should get more than one size smaller. I guess when you have a lot to lose it takes longer to see it in yourself and for others to notice it too. Who even knows.
I think I'm just stuck in a rut. Afterall, how many times have I lost 25 pounds and then regained them? Too many to count! So it's like 25 isn't a big deal for me - even though that's a huge accomplishment! So - I did something drastic. Lots of my clients have token systems or sticker charts to help motivate them. Whenever they participate in a desired behavior they get a sticker or a token, and so many of those tokens will buy them exciting things like a new puzzle, or a new video game. Well, since puzzles and video games don't really motivate me - I went extreme! A new purse! Not just any purse - a fabulous new pink coach purse! It is SO cute! Plus, I found it on ebay - brand new with the tags and everything - and I got a killer deal on it. Then I did something Crazy and unlike me! I gave it to my friend! No not forever - don't worry! It is my motivation! I am just a couple of pounds away from my 10% weight loss goal - and that is a HUGE deal to me - I hope. So my friend is holding my purse ransom until I get my 10% key chain at the WW meeting. I want that purse SO bad! I love my blue coach purse - but it's time to move on to a pinker purse! So I'm trying hard to earn it! Hopefully it will be two or three weeks and I'll be sporting my new pink coach purse... afterall, I have to lose that pound I put on last week!!! It sucks that I like food so much!
In other small tidbits of information - I got an email from my sister today. She had her first baptism on Friday and it sounded AMAZING! The guy is paralyzeed and so the baptism involved 4 elders, one stretcher, 2 ambulances, and a really big font! It's such a great story! I'll share it with whoever wants to hear - it's just too special to put on my blog... So maybe we'll chat and I'll tell you the story. And look for me sporting the new Pink Coach Purse!!! She's a beaut... I think she needs a name.... Penny maybe.... nah, not Penny.... any suggestions are welcome.
Every time i start a new weight loss program I think "this is it, the one that's going to work for me!" And approximatelyl 25 pounds later I think I'm doing well - fall off the bandwagon for a little and it's all downhill from there! I gain back those 25 and then some. Why do I do that? Because I'm dumb... That's not my theory. My theory is I like to sabatoge things in my life. Things start to go well and I think- gosh this is going really well, I wonder how i could screw it up?! And I always find a great way to do it! Not just in my weight loss efforts - but in my friendships - relationships - and other ships.... Okay maybe that's an exaggeration. The thing is that I think I was so excited about weight watchers and the first week I lost an astonishing 10 pounds and then the next week I lost 0.4 - who knew you could lose 0.4 pounds. Anyway - I think I'm just discouraged because even with the 25 that I've lost and kept off - I'm not really seeing any changes in my body. Sure I bought one size smaller pants - but the thing is - they're still big pants - and you'd think after 25 pounds you should get more than one size smaller. I guess when you have a lot to lose it takes longer to see it in yourself and for others to notice it too. Who even knows.
I think I'm just stuck in a rut. Afterall, how many times have I lost 25 pounds and then regained them? Too many to count! So it's like 25 isn't a big deal for me - even though that's a huge accomplishment! So - I did something drastic. Lots of my clients have token systems or sticker charts to help motivate them. Whenever they participate in a desired behavior they get a sticker or a token, and so many of those tokens will buy them exciting things like a new puzzle, or a new video game. Well, since puzzles and video games don't really motivate me - I went extreme! A new purse! Not just any purse - a fabulous new pink coach purse! It is SO cute! Plus, I found it on ebay - brand new with the tags and everything - and I got a killer deal on it. Then I did something Crazy and unlike me! I gave it to my friend! No not forever - don't worry! It is my motivation! I am just a couple of pounds away from my 10% weight loss goal - and that is a HUGE deal to me - I hope. So my friend is holding my purse ransom until I get my 10% key chain at the WW meeting. I want that purse SO bad! I love my blue coach purse - but it's time to move on to a pinker purse! So I'm trying hard to earn it! Hopefully it will be two or three weeks and I'll be sporting my new pink coach purse... afterall, I have to lose that pound I put on last week!!! It sucks that I like food so much!
In other small tidbits of information - I got an email from my sister today. She had her first baptism on Friday and it sounded AMAZING! The guy is paralyzeed and so the baptism involved 4 elders, one stretcher, 2 ambulances, and a really big font! It's such a great story! I'll share it with whoever wants to hear - it's just too special to put on my blog... So maybe we'll chat and I'll tell you the story. And look for me sporting the new Pink Coach Purse!!! She's a beaut... I think she needs a name.... Penny maybe.... nah, not Penny.... any suggestions are welcome.
Sunday, June 15, 2008
A quick year!
I can't sleep. It's about 12:30 and i'm usually LONG asleep. But this weekend has been hard on me emotionally.... And it's so stupid why!
This weekend happened to be the year mark of when D met the family. Now, normally this isn't a big deal because I've taken plenty of guys home to meet the fam. The funny part is that typically within 2 weeks of meeting the family we break up. So I know if I want to end things with someone all I have to do is take them home. What does that say about my family??? Another topic for another day. Anyway, so this weekend was the one year mark of that fateful activity - that turned out so great!
It wasn't hard to pass the day we met, or the first date, or the first kiss.... none of that. But the first time he met the family was a little rough on me, I'm not gonna lie. The thing is, I'm not really sure why. I mean, I haven't really thought about him since the final text - and I was really okay with it. But all day and all night Saturday that's all I could think about and it was pissing me off! It still is!
I had great plans to delete D from my friend list on facebook. You know, I deleted him from my phonebook right away so I couldn't be tempted to text him again. And I was going to take him off my friend list on facebook -but I hadn't been on it until earlier tonight... and I just couldn't do it. Maybe I need someone to do it for me!
I feel so lame! I'm not usually this stupid. Afterall, it's just a boy!!! Yes, it is a boy that I really liked and could see a future with... but it's never going to happen.... how do I move past that next step.... and is every year at the white trash carnival going to be this hard? What about the actual break up date? I don't think that will be hard. So what is it about meeting the family that makes it so hard????
This weekend happened to be the year mark of when D met the family. Now, normally this isn't a big deal because I've taken plenty of guys home to meet the fam. The funny part is that typically within 2 weeks of meeting the family we break up. So I know if I want to end things with someone all I have to do is take them home. What does that say about my family??? Another topic for another day. Anyway, so this weekend was the one year mark of that fateful activity - that turned out so great!
It wasn't hard to pass the day we met, or the first date, or the first kiss.... none of that. But the first time he met the family was a little rough on me, I'm not gonna lie. The thing is, I'm not really sure why. I mean, I haven't really thought about him since the final text - and I was really okay with it. But all day and all night Saturday that's all I could think about and it was pissing me off! It still is!
I had great plans to delete D from my friend list on facebook. You know, I deleted him from my phonebook right away so I couldn't be tempted to text him again. And I was going to take him off my friend list on facebook -but I hadn't been on it until earlier tonight... and I just couldn't do it. Maybe I need someone to do it for me!
I feel so lame! I'm not usually this stupid. Afterall, it's just a boy!!! Yes, it is a boy that I really liked and could see a future with... but it's never going to happen.... how do I move past that next step.... and is every year at the white trash carnival going to be this hard? What about the actual break up date? I don't think that will be hard. So what is it about meeting the family that makes it so hard????
Friday, June 6, 2008
IT'S OVER!
Camp is finally over... and what a crazy turn of events. Let me start from the beginning.
I had heard the buzzing about there being so much snow at Shalom that we wouldn't be able to go. The YW president told me I should attend the camp meeting on Thursday night at the Stake Center to get the low down. Well, lucky for me my mom is super good friends with the bishop's wife and she gets all the scoop and luckily so did I. I found out Thursday morning that as a Stake we would be camping in Lehi somewhere and that Camp would still happen this week. Needless to say I was super happy about that!!! I didn't want my August ruined you know?! I'm so selfish!
So, At the meeting they tell us things have changed a little. Instead of camp starting Tuesday afternoon it started Tuesday morning - and instead of ending on Saturday afternoon it would end on Friday afternoon. I didn't mind to much because that meant less food for me to cook!!! So I spent the weekend shopping for food. About $700.00 and a near anxiety attack later, camp food was all purchased, and I spent the remainder of the weekend cooking the food i had bought so i would be prepared! On Sunday the camp director and I sang a little song about the changes for camp - to the tune of Count your many blessings.... it was super cute i must admit!!! We told the girls of the changes and they were pretty excited. Who wouldn't want to trade a snowy camp for a sunny one?!
So, Monday I spent the entire day packing the food into coolers and boxes. And loading everything in our giant YW Camp Trailer. Plus, attending pack check and making sure girls brought the things they needed for camp. It was actually pretty exciting except I was beginning to have anxiety about cooking all week! No worries though - It would all work out!
We (Leaders and YCL's) left crazy early on Tuesday morning for our Lehi Camp and started to set up camp before the rest of the girls got there. By the time the girls arrived 2 hours later - My kitchen was set up, we had 3 regular size canopies, 1 massive canopy, and a roof for my kitchen set up. Along with a 20 man tent, and 3, 8-man tents!!! The girls came and we started with breakfast which I slaved over. Okay not really, we had costco muffins provided by the relief society - and fruit and juice, provided by Costco.
By lunch time it was WINDY! But it was okay -we had been expecting some rain on Wednesday and we were prepared for it! I made lunch and we had some more activities - and later we had dinner and more activities. By the time we went to bed I was exhausted! But it was so windy! We went to bed and I didn't fall asleep until 1 a.m. and then i had to go to the bathroom at 2:30 in the morning of course! Dang small bladder!!! I slept until about 6:30 when I had to get up to make breakfast.
After breakfast we had flag ceremony and then came back to the campsite to do some crafts. After a little while it started to rain - not just rain, it started to POUR! So we went the girls to their tents to have some solo time while we went from tent to tent patching up holes, and digging motes around tents just to be on the safe side. By about 11 a.m. we started talking about lunch and needed to change our menu. However, the food I had planned on eating for lunch on Thursday was at my house waiting to come up Wednesday night. The camp director sent me home for it, as well as making a pit stop at Harmons for some things and Maverick for a Dt. Coke for her.
By the time I got back it was pouring in O town, but not so bad in Lehi. I put all the food in my kitchen just in time to be taken to a meeting where - camp was changed again. I guess a lot of the wards were not prepared for rain and were having some serious flooding problems with their tents and the decision was made to go home and continue camp at the Stake Center. What? I know right?!
It took us only one hour to pack up everything in the trailer with the exception of the kitchen and the tents. Everything else was packed. We left and went to the church for lunch and a leader program. At the end of the night we sent the girls home to shower and they were allowed to decide if they wanted to sleep at home or at Sis. Gibb's home on the floor. EVERYONE showed up to Sis. Gibb's. It was so cute! So we camped out on her floor. On Thursday morning we went to the stake center and finished certification and such. At lunchtime we went to the church and had lunch, and then did our activities at the church and prepared for bishopric night. Which ended around 10 p.m. and then went home! That was the end of camp! Can you believe all the changes? There was so much more to it, but i'm exhausted and don't have time to go into all of it. Maybe later if I feel like it!
Oh - one last thing - and this is some wonderful news!!! New Kids on the Block (NKOTB for all of those fans) is coming in concert to the E center this November! I'm SO going! I loved the New Kids on the Block. I do have their greatest hits CD and listen to it on my iPod whenever it comes up! We watched the NKOTB concert video at Sis. Gibb's house.... it was SO much fun! I love doing dorky things! ANYWAY - if anybody would like to go - let me know! It'll be a party!
I had heard the buzzing about there being so much snow at Shalom that we wouldn't be able to go. The YW president told me I should attend the camp meeting on Thursday night at the Stake Center to get the low down. Well, lucky for me my mom is super good friends with the bishop's wife and she gets all the scoop and luckily so did I. I found out Thursday morning that as a Stake we would be camping in Lehi somewhere and that Camp would still happen this week. Needless to say I was super happy about that!!! I didn't want my August ruined you know?! I'm so selfish!
So, At the meeting they tell us things have changed a little. Instead of camp starting Tuesday afternoon it started Tuesday morning - and instead of ending on Saturday afternoon it would end on Friday afternoon. I didn't mind to much because that meant less food for me to cook!!! So I spent the weekend shopping for food. About $700.00 and a near anxiety attack later, camp food was all purchased, and I spent the remainder of the weekend cooking the food i had bought so i would be prepared! On Sunday the camp director and I sang a little song about the changes for camp - to the tune of Count your many blessings.... it was super cute i must admit!!! We told the girls of the changes and they were pretty excited. Who wouldn't want to trade a snowy camp for a sunny one?!
So, Monday I spent the entire day packing the food into coolers and boxes. And loading everything in our giant YW Camp Trailer. Plus, attending pack check and making sure girls brought the things they needed for camp. It was actually pretty exciting except I was beginning to have anxiety about cooking all week! No worries though - It would all work out!
We (Leaders and YCL's) left crazy early on Tuesday morning for our Lehi Camp and started to set up camp before the rest of the girls got there. By the time the girls arrived 2 hours later - My kitchen was set up, we had 3 regular size canopies, 1 massive canopy, and a roof for my kitchen set up. Along with a 20 man tent, and 3, 8-man tents!!! The girls came and we started with breakfast which I slaved over. Okay not really, we had costco muffins provided by the relief society - and fruit and juice, provided by Costco.
By lunch time it was WINDY! But it was okay -we had been expecting some rain on Wednesday and we were prepared for it! I made lunch and we had some more activities - and later we had dinner and more activities. By the time we went to bed I was exhausted! But it was so windy! We went to bed and I didn't fall asleep until 1 a.m. and then i had to go to the bathroom at 2:30 in the morning of course! Dang small bladder!!! I slept until about 6:30 when I had to get up to make breakfast.
After breakfast we had flag ceremony and then came back to the campsite to do some crafts. After a little while it started to rain - not just rain, it started to POUR! So we went the girls to their tents to have some solo time while we went from tent to tent patching up holes, and digging motes around tents just to be on the safe side. By about 11 a.m. we started talking about lunch and needed to change our menu. However, the food I had planned on eating for lunch on Thursday was at my house waiting to come up Wednesday night. The camp director sent me home for it, as well as making a pit stop at Harmons for some things and Maverick for a Dt. Coke for her.
By the time I got back it was pouring in O town, but not so bad in Lehi. I put all the food in my kitchen just in time to be taken to a meeting where - camp was changed again. I guess a lot of the wards were not prepared for rain and were having some serious flooding problems with their tents and the decision was made to go home and continue camp at the Stake Center. What? I know right?!
It took us only one hour to pack up everything in the trailer with the exception of the kitchen and the tents. Everything else was packed. We left and went to the church for lunch and a leader program. At the end of the night we sent the girls home to shower and they were allowed to decide if they wanted to sleep at home or at Sis. Gibb's home on the floor. EVERYONE showed up to Sis. Gibb's. It was so cute! So we camped out on her floor. On Thursday morning we went to the stake center and finished certification and such. At lunchtime we went to the church and had lunch, and then did our activities at the church and prepared for bishopric night. Which ended around 10 p.m. and then went home! That was the end of camp! Can you believe all the changes? There was so much more to it, but i'm exhausted and don't have time to go into all of it. Maybe later if I feel like it!
Oh - one last thing - and this is some wonderful news!!! New Kids on the Block (NKOTB for all of those fans) is coming in concert to the E center this November! I'm SO going! I loved the New Kids on the Block. I do have their greatest hits CD and listen to it on my iPod whenever it comes up! We watched the NKOTB concert video at Sis. Gibb's house.... it was SO much fun! I love doing dorky things! ANYWAY - if anybody would like to go - let me know! It'll be a party!
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Camp 2008
So last night I'm minding my own business at the Yong Women's activity when the YW Secretary asks to speak with me. She pulls me aside and asks if I've seen the pictures of Camp Shalom. I tell her no I haven't seen anything. She then proceeds to tell me that she heard from a very reliable source (a.k.a her husband - the bishop) that there is 6 feet of snow up there, the lake is frozen, and by the way, cars can't even make it up there. She then asked me if we were still planning on going to camp? Like I know! This is the first I've heard of that! So I get home and see an email from the Camp Director who said she heard there is a buzz about snow up there and the possibility that we may have to go in August instead.... AUGUST! Really? Really!
I decided to take matters into my own hand and email the director and other assistant. Quite frankly August doesn't work for me. Call me selfish but I have planned my entire summer around Camp and I'll be damned if I have to change my plans. Okay really, I have nothing planned but a few concerts - that are in August, and very important to me! But the reality is, August is the only break I will have from school and even still it's only a 3 week long break - then it's school stuff until I graduate next May - so I need my August!!!!
I figure, if we can't go to camp next week at Shalom - let's go somewhere else. Who needs to go with the Stake? They plan lame activities anyway. Ugh - I really have no idea what to do. The director said she doesn't even want to think about it yet because she's ending school and her daughter is graduating. Really? Like i'm not busy - I'm sorry but this is kind of a small crisis! Whatever! So we're going to go to a meeting with the Stake on Thursday night to find out the stake's decision on camp. We'll see what happens I guess....
I decided to take matters into my own hand and email the director and other assistant. Quite frankly August doesn't work for me. Call me selfish but I have planned my entire summer around Camp and I'll be damned if I have to change my plans. Okay really, I have nothing planned but a few concerts - that are in August, and very important to me! But the reality is, August is the only break I will have from school and even still it's only a 3 week long break - then it's school stuff until I graduate next May - so I need my August!!!!
I figure, if we can't go to camp next week at Shalom - let's go somewhere else. Who needs to go with the Stake? They plan lame activities anyway. Ugh - I really have no idea what to do. The director said she doesn't even want to think about it yet because she's ending school and her daughter is graduating. Really? Like i'm not busy - I'm sorry but this is kind of a small crisis! Whatever! So we're going to go to a meeting with the Stake on Thursday night to find out the stake's decision on camp. We'll see what happens I guess....
Saturday, May 24, 2008
Born to Shop - Forced to Cook
I have become a complete stress case! Who knew that Girls Camp Preparation would be so overwhelming! Oh, but it is! Luckily I'm only an assistant camp director because if I were in charge - we'd be in deep trouble.
I think I had some misconceptions as to what it would be like as a camp director. I thought I would be in charge of the fun stuff, or the crafty stuff... Not food! If you know me at all - you know cooking is not my strong suit! And cooking for 30 people every day - definitely NOT my strong suit. But even still - I'm in charge of food. That's a HUGE assignment. I get anxiety when I start thinking about it. We go to camp in 10 days and I'm freaking out!
I had to price food last week to determine what we would eat and how much it would all cost. I seriously thought I was going to have a panic attack right in the middle of the grocery store! It was intense! But I had to go cheap on everything because the young womens president is quite the money nazi! Really! She wants me to feed 30 girls on $300.00 for the week - not likely!!! In any case - I'm cutting corners, going cheap, and paying for stuff myself to keep the damage at a minimum... It's frustrating!
So here I am, a week away from buying all the groceries and putting them in their respective coolers after I have sorted, chopped, diced, sliced, and cooked most of the stuff so the cooking will be at a minimum at camp... I hope I can pull this off. Otherwise I'll be one unhappy crazy lady at camp! I did buy myself a rather sweet apron that says Born to Shop - Forced to Cook. Partly as a joke - but also in all seriousness!!!
Other than the food part camp should be a great time. I'm in charge of the devotionals every day at breakfast and dinner, and the craft projects which will be super fun! I have to admit I am kind of excited. I tend to go a little overboard on the craft stuff. But better to be super prepared than not at all, cause who knows - we could be cabin bound with all the snow and rain. The men in the stake are going up next Saturday to dig us in and clean out the cabins and biffy's. Good times.
You know what makes me frustrated- when the boys tell us we aren't really camping cause we have cabins. You know what? Cabins are necessary because THERE ARE BEARS!!! Yes, we've had them join our testimony meetings on a rare occasion and since there is so much snow I'm not taking any chances. The cabins don't have electricity or running water. Now, tell me how we are not camping - and yet they are camping by going to Lake Powell and staying on a House Boat??? Make sense? NO!
Enough of my rants - Camp will be fun (repeat it with me) Camp will be fun, camp will be fun... I'm optomistic.
I think I had some misconceptions as to what it would be like as a camp director. I thought I would be in charge of the fun stuff, or the crafty stuff... Not food! If you know me at all - you know cooking is not my strong suit! And cooking for 30 people every day - definitely NOT my strong suit. But even still - I'm in charge of food. That's a HUGE assignment. I get anxiety when I start thinking about it. We go to camp in 10 days and I'm freaking out!
I had to price food last week to determine what we would eat and how much it would all cost. I seriously thought I was going to have a panic attack right in the middle of the grocery store! It was intense! But I had to go cheap on everything because the young womens president is quite the money nazi! Really! She wants me to feed 30 girls on $300.00 for the week - not likely!!! In any case - I'm cutting corners, going cheap, and paying for stuff myself to keep the damage at a minimum... It's frustrating!
So here I am, a week away from buying all the groceries and putting them in their respective coolers after I have sorted, chopped, diced, sliced, and cooked most of the stuff so the cooking will be at a minimum at camp... I hope I can pull this off. Otherwise I'll be one unhappy crazy lady at camp! I did buy myself a rather sweet apron that says Born to Shop - Forced to Cook. Partly as a joke - but also in all seriousness!!!
Other than the food part camp should be a great time. I'm in charge of the devotionals every day at breakfast and dinner, and the craft projects which will be super fun! I have to admit I am kind of excited. I tend to go a little overboard on the craft stuff. But better to be super prepared than not at all, cause who knows - we could be cabin bound with all the snow and rain. The men in the stake are going up next Saturday to dig us in and clean out the cabins and biffy's. Good times.
You know what makes me frustrated- when the boys tell us we aren't really camping cause we have cabins. You know what? Cabins are necessary because THERE ARE BEARS!!! Yes, we've had them join our testimony meetings on a rare occasion and since there is so much snow I'm not taking any chances. The cabins don't have electricity or running water. Now, tell me how we are not camping - and yet they are camping by going to Lake Powell and staying on a House Boat??? Make sense? NO!
Enough of my rants - Camp will be fun (repeat it with me) Camp will be fun, camp will be fun... I'm optomistic.
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Better to lose a love than to love a loser!
Okay, maybe that's a little harsh right?! D is no loser - just an idiot!
We didn't end up meeting yesterday because it just didn't happen. Instead we met for lunch today. So I've been throwing out good thoughts to the universe hoping for some good in return of course! I met him and we had a nice little lunch and talked about superficial things. How's his family, how's mine? How is he, how am I. Stuff like that. We got out to the cars and I gave him the old license plates and he gave me a side hug - yes a side hug and said he'd see me later. I stopped him and said, "You know, my feelings for you have never changed - I still really like you. And it's apparent to me that you don't feel the same way which is fine, because maybe we aren't in the same place in life right now. It just sucks because I've been waiting for 8 months for you to decide you were going to call me and try again. But it hasn't happened and I'm not waiting around anymore because I deserve to be loved the way that I would have loved you." And then I got in my car and left. Crying of course.
So within minutes he had sent me a text saying "Geeze you seemed pissed. I never expected you to wait around for me. I'm sorry that was not clear." I told him I wasn't pissed at all, just more hurt than anything because when he said he wanted to try again, I believed him. Maybe I was just naive - but I wasn't pissed, I just didn't want him to see me cry. So he texted me back and said he was sorry and all I said was "You should be. You have no idea what you're missing out on."
Call me crazy - but I was so proud of myself! He should be sorry because damnit I'm a cool girl and a kick ass girlfriend! Not only that but I deserve better than that. I deserve to be treated well and adored. I deserve someone who wants to see me all the time and instead of being a coward and texting me an apology - someone who would actually call me at least. What do you expect from someone who breaks up with you over text right?! I should have known!
So the funny part is that I get back to my office and I'm crying to two of my friends telling them how bad I hate him - but still L him in the same sentance and my heart is broken and maybe his body language was telling me something, when I get a text with my horoscope for the day. Now, I'm normally not a believer - and to be quite honest I don't know how I ended up having my horoscope texted to me every day - but it says "Analyzing won't make things any clearer. The day is fuzzy." I'm a believer now! Maybe not a believer - but that was pretty weird.
I'll survive - don't you worry! It still hurts and probably will until I have a really good "girls night" or something. Good thing tomorrow I'm going for a Pedi. I need it! And now I am officially on a dating hiatus!
We didn't end up meeting yesterday because it just didn't happen. Instead we met for lunch today. So I've been throwing out good thoughts to the universe hoping for some good in return of course! I met him and we had a nice little lunch and talked about superficial things. How's his family, how's mine? How is he, how am I. Stuff like that. We got out to the cars and I gave him the old license plates and he gave me a side hug - yes a side hug and said he'd see me later. I stopped him and said, "You know, my feelings for you have never changed - I still really like you. And it's apparent to me that you don't feel the same way which is fine, because maybe we aren't in the same place in life right now. It just sucks because I've been waiting for 8 months for you to decide you were going to call me and try again. But it hasn't happened and I'm not waiting around anymore because I deserve to be loved the way that I would have loved you." And then I got in my car and left. Crying of course.
So within minutes he had sent me a text saying "Geeze you seemed pissed. I never expected you to wait around for me. I'm sorry that was not clear." I told him I wasn't pissed at all, just more hurt than anything because when he said he wanted to try again, I believed him. Maybe I was just naive - but I wasn't pissed, I just didn't want him to see me cry. So he texted me back and said he was sorry and all I said was "You should be. You have no idea what you're missing out on."
Call me crazy - but I was so proud of myself! He should be sorry because damnit I'm a cool girl and a kick ass girlfriend! Not only that but I deserve better than that. I deserve to be treated well and adored. I deserve someone who wants to see me all the time and instead of being a coward and texting me an apology - someone who would actually call me at least. What do you expect from someone who breaks up with you over text right?! I should have known!
So the funny part is that I get back to my office and I'm crying to two of my friends telling them how bad I hate him - but still L him in the same sentance and my heart is broken and maybe his body language was telling me something, when I get a text with my horoscope for the day. Now, I'm normally not a believer - and to be quite honest I don't know how I ended up having my horoscope texted to me every day - but it says "Analyzing won't make things any clearer. The day is fuzzy." I'm a believer now! Maybe not a believer - but that was pretty weird.
I'll survive - don't you worry! It still hurts and probably will until I have a really good "girls night" or something. Good thing tomorrow I'm going for a Pedi. I need it! And now I am officially on a dating hiatus!
Monday, May 12, 2008
You were brave then... be brave now!
Yes I know - it's been a month and a half since I blogged - I've been busy so get off my case! Really I have been super busy and I will catch up with my blogness as soon as I can find the time. Right now I can't really sleep so I'm blogging away in my bed (Thank goodness for laptops)!
I am going to be brave tomorrow... very brave. The plan is to express my feelings and put my foot down at the same time. Cause I'm done! With what you may ask? Actually, if you know me well enough you know it's about D. I've decided I'm done waiting around. Not that I was actually waiting - but I kind of am in a sick way.
The plan is that tomorrow I'm giving him his old plates and he's giving me a spare to the car and then I'm going to tell him like it is. That I have feelings for him still - the feelings haven't changed. The thing is, it's been 8 months now (gosh I'm pathetic) and I haven't pushed or shoved or even made mention of the fact that HE said he wanted to try again. Even after further clarification (I'm not stupid - I know what try again means) - and he insisted he did want to try again.... still nothing. And I'm done waiting. I deserve to be loved by someone who will love me the way that I would have loved him. Is that so much to ask for? I don't think so. So that's it. I'm not waiting around - I'm officially moving onward and upward.
I'm not gonna lie though - it will hurt like hell! Anything involving feelings and the inevitibility that they will be hurt sucks but what other choice do I have. I was going to wait until I graduate next year (cause really, with my schedule who even has time to date) - but a friend of mine pointed out that next year is a year away, and a lot can change in that time. Who knows who I could meet and pass up because I'm waiting for one guy to pull his head out and realize that I'm a kick ass girlfriend and that his feelings for me are more than just lust (don't get me started on that one!). I just don't have the time or energy to wait around for that. Nor, do I deserve that!
So this is it. I'm being brave even though afterward I'm certain I will cry. Pray for me!
I am going to be brave tomorrow... very brave. The plan is to express my feelings and put my foot down at the same time. Cause I'm done! With what you may ask? Actually, if you know me well enough you know it's about D. I've decided I'm done waiting around. Not that I was actually waiting - but I kind of am in a sick way.
The plan is that tomorrow I'm giving him his old plates and he's giving me a spare to the car and then I'm going to tell him like it is. That I have feelings for him still - the feelings haven't changed. The thing is, it's been 8 months now (gosh I'm pathetic) and I haven't pushed or shoved or even made mention of the fact that HE said he wanted to try again. Even after further clarification (I'm not stupid - I know what try again means) - and he insisted he did want to try again.... still nothing. And I'm done waiting. I deserve to be loved by someone who will love me the way that I would have loved him. Is that so much to ask for? I don't think so. So that's it. I'm not waiting around - I'm officially moving onward and upward.
I'm not gonna lie though - it will hurt like hell! Anything involving feelings and the inevitibility that they will be hurt sucks but what other choice do I have. I was going to wait until I graduate next year (cause really, with my schedule who even has time to date) - but a friend of mine pointed out that next year is a year away, and a lot can change in that time. Who knows who I could meet and pass up because I'm waiting for one guy to pull his head out and realize that I'm a kick ass girlfriend and that his feelings for me are more than just lust (don't get me started on that one!). I just don't have the time or energy to wait around for that. Nor, do I deserve that!
So this is it. I'm being brave even though afterward I'm certain I will cry. Pray for me!
Friday, March 21, 2008
One Dope Ride
I have so much today and yet nothing to say at the same time. I bought a car today - a Honda Accord. I bought it from a good friend and it's super nice! Thanks for the car D. Yes, you read that right - I bought D's car. Random right?! It is - and to be honest, some people think it's weird. I don't though. I have been in it before - like it - it's a good car - plus I know D and how well he takes care of it! So I didn't have any reservations about buying it from him.
So I went and picked it up today and was about to have an anxiety attack - not because I was getting a loan to buy a car - but because I haven't seen him since we parted ways (September 11th to be exact). Actually, that's not 100% true - I saw him randomly at the mall sometime around christmas ish. We talked for 30 seconds maybe and I felt like I was going to have a heart attack! I still might! No - it was good I guess. I don't really know how to act around him so I was kind of rude - interesting how that always happens. I don't know what to do so I revert to what I do best - Bitchy! Anyway - It was a good transaction - and I was so nervous and had butterflies. Just seeing him makes me twitterpated again! It sucks! I mean, he likes me still he said - but that doesn't really mean anything right?! I shouldn't analyze it - I should just let it be right?! Right! I can't help it - when you learn to analyze crap that's what you do! I knew school would ruin me!!!!
In any case - I got a car... I'll listen to De La Vega when I pick it up - One Dope Ride.
So I went and picked it up today and was about to have an anxiety attack - not because I was getting a loan to buy a car - but because I haven't seen him since we parted ways (September 11th to be exact). Actually, that's not 100% true - I saw him randomly at the mall sometime around christmas ish. We talked for 30 seconds maybe and I felt like I was going to have a heart attack! I still might! No - it was good I guess. I don't really know how to act around him so I was kind of rude - interesting how that always happens. I don't know what to do so I revert to what I do best - Bitchy! Anyway - It was a good transaction - and I was so nervous and had butterflies. Just seeing him makes me twitterpated again! It sucks! I mean, he likes me still he said - but that doesn't really mean anything right?! I shouldn't analyze it - I should just let it be right?! Right! I can't help it - when you learn to analyze crap that's what you do! I knew school would ruin me!!!!
In any case - I got a car... I'll listen to De La Vega when I pick it up - One Dope Ride.
Monday, March 17, 2008
Pretty Toes!
My little brothers band won 4th place at State Battle of the Bands on Saturday night. Good for them! They're so stinking cute - and talented of course! As official band scrapbooker - when I finally get the book together - I'll have to make 4 copies - one for each boy - cause I'm keeping the original of course! You can find them on myspace - their name is Cobet. Cute Cute boys - and not too shabby music wise! Check 'em out!
Ready for school to be done! That is how I feel today. But to make myself feel better - I've gotten a pedicure! It sure does make me feel better! I have pretty toes now. I love having pretty toes. There's something about a pedicure and a new hairdo that makes ya feel all confident and happy inside! Yay for me!
D texted me again today. Now, this is a confession I will make once and only once (for now at least). Still like the boy - a lot! As we chatted - I found out - the boy still likes me. Feelings about that? Happy - Nervous - Frustrated - Excited - and Really? Now what?! So - that's that.
Nothing too exciting for now - I'll write more later this week or next! Woot Woot!
Ready for school to be done! That is how I feel today. But to make myself feel better - I've gotten a pedicure! It sure does make me feel better! I have pretty toes now. I love having pretty toes. There's something about a pedicure and a new hairdo that makes ya feel all confident and happy inside! Yay for me!
D texted me again today. Now, this is a confession I will make once and only once (for now at least). Still like the boy - a lot! As we chatted - I found out - the boy still likes me. Feelings about that? Happy - Nervous - Frustrated - Excited - and Really? Now what?! So - that's that.
Nothing too exciting for now - I'll write more later this week or next! Woot Woot!
Monday, March 10, 2008
Tidbits - like Pineapple
I don't have much to say about one thing in particular - so I'll just blab about a couple of random things.
1. I saw a camel on the freeway on Thursday. NO JOKE! It was in a horse trailer. My first thought - Is that a camel? Second - Is that a camel in a horse trailer? Now, mind you it's not every day I see a camel - I know in Salt Lake City right?! But I wondered if the circus was in town or if it was going to the zoo but thought it would be a better publicized Camel trasporter - instead of a horse trailer. A camel... I know!
2. I hate Dutch Oven cooking! Yes, hate it! This is sad because I'll be the girls camp cook in June - but really! I don't like having unpredictible cooking times. I want to know when I can expect to eat, and I expect to eat at that time! I don't want the wind and weather to determine if I have to wait another half hour to eat! Seriously! Dutch oven cooking is stupid!
3. I am pretty sure I will be having a nervous breakdown at one of two times either April 24th, or May 3rd. Either would be good days for me. Day after the last day of class, or the day after my mom's graduation. Either would be fine I guess - I just don't have time before then - so let's put good Karma out for my nervous breakdown to wait until one of those two days!
4. I worked on Saturday. It wasn't very fun! However, I did find a new love! It's called Pandora! It's an MSN music thing. You type in an artist or song you like - and they create a huge playlist with similar types of music! LOVE IT! It's way better than the iTunes thing that tells you what else you might like based on what you have, because really, I like KORN, but that doesn't mean I want to listen to it all the time! This is a perfect "pick your music mood" station! Have I mentioned I love it?
5. I have spent way too much money in the past three weeks - on what you ask? On stuff. I spent $300.00 on a purse and wallet (COACH - be jealous). I spent almost $400.00 on scrapbooking stuff too. Why? I'm not really sure! I needed some retail therapy clearly - but I may have gone overboard! No more spending! Say it with me "I don't need to buy more stuff"
Well, I guess that's it for now. If anything else happens I'll let you know! But my life isn't very exciting... tidbits of info... that's all!
1. I saw a camel on the freeway on Thursday. NO JOKE! It was in a horse trailer. My first thought - Is that a camel? Second - Is that a camel in a horse trailer? Now, mind you it's not every day I see a camel - I know in Salt Lake City right?! But I wondered if the circus was in town or if it was going to the zoo but thought it would be a better publicized Camel trasporter - instead of a horse trailer. A camel... I know!
2. I hate Dutch Oven cooking! Yes, hate it! This is sad because I'll be the girls camp cook in June - but really! I don't like having unpredictible cooking times. I want to know when I can expect to eat, and I expect to eat at that time! I don't want the wind and weather to determine if I have to wait another half hour to eat! Seriously! Dutch oven cooking is stupid!
3. I am pretty sure I will be having a nervous breakdown at one of two times either April 24th, or May 3rd. Either would be good days for me. Day after the last day of class, or the day after my mom's graduation. Either would be fine I guess - I just don't have time before then - so let's put good Karma out for my nervous breakdown to wait until one of those two days!
4. I worked on Saturday. It wasn't very fun! However, I did find a new love! It's called Pandora! It's an MSN music thing. You type in an artist or song you like - and they create a huge playlist with similar types of music! LOVE IT! It's way better than the iTunes thing that tells you what else you might like based on what you have, because really, I like KORN, but that doesn't mean I want to listen to it all the time! This is a perfect "pick your music mood" station! Have I mentioned I love it?
5. I have spent way too much money in the past three weeks - on what you ask? On stuff. I spent $300.00 on a purse and wallet (COACH - be jealous). I spent almost $400.00 on scrapbooking stuff too. Why? I'm not really sure! I needed some retail therapy clearly - but I may have gone overboard! No more spending! Say it with me "I don't need to buy more stuff"
Well, I guess that's it for now. If anything else happens I'll let you know! But my life isn't very exciting... tidbits of info... that's all!
Monday, March 3, 2008
It doesn't make sense - I know!
So things are crazy and hectic and I kind of like it! I'm nearing spring break which means I haven't turned in many assignments and will hate myself because I'll have a TON to do over spring break- whatever! I still need to decide what to do this summer. Work only? Work and School? Quit everything? Okay that last one isn't really an option! Any suggestions can help!
This week I had my first Girls Camp Planning Meeting and guess what my big assignment is - guess - Yup - Camp Cook! Do they know who they're talking to? Seriously! I'm not a cook! I wonder how far Pizza Hut delivers?! Really it will be fun - I'm really excited about it! It's going to be a fun week - and I'm getting some dutch oven cooking lessons from a friend this weekend - should be a good time. In reality I think he's only doing it because he thinks I'll like him if I spend more time with him (he's said it before) but seriously- I just need the help and he knows what he's doing. What do you expect right?!
Randomly D texted me this morning - out of the blue right?! It was nice to chat but in all honesty I don't have any idea why he did. It's not like we're friends - I mean, friends spend time together right?! Apparently he forgot that part of the friend contract. The friend I haven't seen for a month- has now been longer. I want to hang out - I hate fighting - I don't feel like we're fighting though - I just feel like nothing is happening. I don't know what else to say. She apparently read my blog and said she didn't lie cause she worked til 5. Sorry my bad, I said 3 not 5. But the show started at 7... I don't even care - if you don't want to hang out then don't - I'm okay with that. I shouldn't be annoyed. I'm over it really.
Melissa and I went shopping this weekend $600.00 (that's only what I spent) later we came home! It was a fun day! I love spending time with Moosie - and we have to get it all in cause it won't happen for the next 18 months. It will be good for her to go on a mission - she'll love it! She got a bunch of mission clothes and I bought a bunch of stuff I don't need but want.... What is my problem!? I did need some retail therapy - who knew it would come in the form of a $300.00 purse and wallet?! Crazy I know - but i LOVE it! It was worth it! It's so pretty! Seriously! Will I buy another one like it? Not until the Fall maybe... we'll see! It's so nice!
Other than that - nothing exciting is happening really! I'm going on a cruise in June - so that will be fun! Gotta invite a friend to come so I can do fun stuff! Yay for vacations! Goodness knows I need one! Maybe I'll get another tattoo... I'm feeling a little wreckless today....
This week I had my first Girls Camp Planning Meeting and guess what my big assignment is - guess - Yup - Camp Cook! Do they know who they're talking to? Seriously! I'm not a cook! I wonder how far Pizza Hut delivers?! Really it will be fun - I'm really excited about it! It's going to be a fun week - and I'm getting some dutch oven cooking lessons from a friend this weekend - should be a good time. In reality I think he's only doing it because he thinks I'll like him if I spend more time with him (he's said it before) but seriously- I just need the help and he knows what he's doing. What do you expect right?!
Randomly D texted me this morning - out of the blue right?! It was nice to chat but in all honesty I don't have any idea why he did. It's not like we're friends - I mean, friends spend time together right?! Apparently he forgot that part of the friend contract. The friend I haven't seen for a month- has now been longer. I want to hang out - I hate fighting - I don't feel like we're fighting though - I just feel like nothing is happening. I don't know what else to say. She apparently read my blog and said she didn't lie cause she worked til 5. Sorry my bad, I said 3 not 5. But the show started at 7... I don't even care - if you don't want to hang out then don't - I'm okay with that. I shouldn't be annoyed. I'm over it really.
Melissa and I went shopping this weekend $600.00 (that's only what I spent) later we came home! It was a fun day! I love spending time with Moosie - and we have to get it all in cause it won't happen for the next 18 months. It will be good for her to go on a mission - she'll love it! She got a bunch of mission clothes and I bought a bunch of stuff I don't need but want.... What is my problem!? I did need some retail therapy - who knew it would come in the form of a $300.00 purse and wallet?! Crazy I know - but i LOVE it! It was worth it! It's so pretty! Seriously! Will I buy another one like it? Not until the Fall maybe... we'll see! It's so nice!
Other than that - nothing exciting is happening really! I'm going on a cruise in June - so that will be fun! Gotta invite a friend to come so I can do fun stuff! Yay for vacations! Goodness knows I need one! Maybe I'll get another tattoo... I'm feeling a little wreckless today....
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Blah Blah Blah
Yay for my little bro! His band took first place in the multi-region battle of the bands! Crazy right!? It's exciting though! I'm happy for him! My next assignment as Cobet Fanclub co-president and official band scrapbooker is to make t-shirts for State Battle of the Bands (March 15th at 7:00 p.m. at Highland High School - shameless plug I know)! It should be a good time! The funniest part - they won $125.00 as part of their first place schtuff - and what are they going to do with it??? Buy a mini-fridge for their practice room! I about died laughing! And how did they want to celebrate after their big win? By having frosties from Wendy's of course! Silly Silly boys!
In other news - my dad gets his alzheimers test results on Thursday - and I'm not really looking forward to that! No, not at all! I guess it will be good to just know either way - it's just more stress to throw into the mix!
Work is killing me - what is up with all of these audits? Seriously! I'm over it! Except some of my files are not in tip-top shape! It's one of those things where I've got all the important stuff but have forgotten one or two small things... Damn those small things! So i'll work this weekend to fix the small things. Because we've been given an extra scare at work - "The Feds can call at any time and ask for your files and you have to give it to them right away." If that doesn't put the fear of a payback in your heart - nothing will!
My social life is not so social! Really I mean, who has time for that crap anyway? Not me! I kind of feel a little withdrawn... Not that I don't want to be social - but I don't want to be social. I know that doesn't make sense. I want to be social - I just don't have the energy for it right now. It's all I can do to drag myself out of bed in time to get to work, school, practicum, church, etc. Although it's a bit easier on Sunday's because Church doesn't start until 11. Besides - the friend I got into an argument with - haven't seen her for over a month. And here's the thing - I invited her to my brothers show on Saturday night and she tells me she has to work late and can't go... Why the lies??? She got off work at 3... She was just watching her nephew - and I can totally see why she'd rather do that - it's cool - but seriously... why lie???? It annoys me!
Other than that and the crazy crap that's been happening at my house - I'm pretty sure after this semester I'm going to have an emotional breakdown! Seriously! Breakdown! And then I'll start summer semester classes! Gosh I need a vacation!
In other news - my dad gets his alzheimers test results on Thursday - and I'm not really looking forward to that! No, not at all! I guess it will be good to just know either way - it's just more stress to throw into the mix!
Work is killing me - what is up with all of these audits? Seriously! I'm over it! Except some of my files are not in tip-top shape! It's one of those things where I've got all the important stuff but have forgotten one or two small things... Damn those small things! So i'll work this weekend to fix the small things. Because we've been given an extra scare at work - "The Feds can call at any time and ask for your files and you have to give it to them right away." If that doesn't put the fear of a payback in your heart - nothing will!
My social life is not so social! Really I mean, who has time for that crap anyway? Not me! I kind of feel a little withdrawn... Not that I don't want to be social - but I don't want to be social. I know that doesn't make sense. I want to be social - I just don't have the energy for it right now. It's all I can do to drag myself out of bed in time to get to work, school, practicum, church, etc. Although it's a bit easier on Sunday's because Church doesn't start until 11. Besides - the friend I got into an argument with - haven't seen her for over a month. And here's the thing - I invited her to my brothers show on Saturday night and she tells me she has to work late and can't go... Why the lies??? She got off work at 3... She was just watching her nephew - and I can totally see why she'd rather do that - it's cool - but seriously... why lie???? It annoys me!
Other than that and the crazy crap that's been happening at my house - I'm pretty sure after this semester I'm going to have an emotional breakdown! Seriously! Breakdown! And then I'll start summer semester classes! Gosh I need a vacation!
Friday, February 22, 2008
What a Week!
Oh man! What a week it has been! So much has happened! Where do I start?! Last Friday was an extremely eventful day in the life of my family! My little brother is the drummer in a band called Cobet (I have no idea what that even means) and they played in a city Battle of the Bands and rocked it hard core! They played a song they wrote - and then Black Dog. You can't go wrong with some Led Zepplin right?! Anyway - They took 1st place! I know right?! It was amazing! The crowd went wild - and they played a stellar encore entitled "640 North". Yes in tribute to our garage where they practice and where nasty phone calls and police visits are received! Good times!
Later that night my little sister Melissa opened her mission call! Kennewick Washington! Fabulous right?! Right! The funniest part - she saw the word Kennewick and thought she was going foreign - yeah, that's why you read the whole thing first! :) I'm so excited for her! I cried a little - but didn't cry a ton until I went to bed that night. I'm so proud of her! Seriously! She has grown into such a great gal (I can't say woman cause that sounds old)! She will be a great missionary - and I will be a great missionary's sister! I'll send letters - packages - pictures - and anything else I want. Afterall, having served in the 'Sister' ranks myself, I kind of have an idea of the things she will need/want etc. Congrats Moose!
Thirdly - it's midterm - kind of. Since I don't really have midterms I don't really know when it is - but I think it's now! In any case it's one of those times when you have to make decisions about your career - can we say anxiety?! So, I chose a domain - Health. Made a top 5 list for practicums - Intermountain Medical Center is my top choice. And met with my practicum supervisor and coordinator. Honestly, I don't think i've really grown that much in my practicum. I do what I have to do and that's about it. But my supervisor C just ranted and raved about how wonderful I am, and how skilled I am, and how much they really like me, and then offered me a job upon graduation. Crazy I know! Here's the clincher - I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up. Maybe I'll never know! I guess that's not a bad thing.
My week ends today - although tomorrow my little bro and the band are going to participate in a multi-regional Battle of the Bands! If they are in the top four, they get to go to State. How great would that be? Gotta love it! Other than that - and the usual self work that I've been doing - nothing too crazy has happened. My life is pretty calm - for this next hour anyway! I think I may have stretched myself a bit thin this semester - I can handle it - it just isn't much fun! Who said school and work was fun anyway right?! :) Until next time....
Later that night my little sister Melissa opened her mission call! Kennewick Washington! Fabulous right?! Right! The funniest part - she saw the word Kennewick and thought she was going foreign - yeah, that's why you read the whole thing first! :) I'm so excited for her! I cried a little - but didn't cry a ton until I went to bed that night. I'm so proud of her! Seriously! She has grown into such a great gal (I can't say woman cause that sounds old)! She will be a great missionary - and I will be a great missionary's sister! I'll send letters - packages - pictures - and anything else I want. Afterall, having served in the 'Sister' ranks myself, I kind of have an idea of the things she will need/want etc. Congrats Moose!
Thirdly - it's midterm - kind of. Since I don't really have midterms I don't really know when it is - but I think it's now! In any case it's one of those times when you have to make decisions about your career - can we say anxiety?! So, I chose a domain - Health. Made a top 5 list for practicums - Intermountain Medical Center is my top choice. And met with my practicum supervisor and coordinator. Honestly, I don't think i've really grown that much in my practicum. I do what I have to do and that's about it. But my supervisor C just ranted and raved about how wonderful I am, and how skilled I am, and how much they really like me, and then offered me a job upon graduation. Crazy I know! Here's the clincher - I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up. Maybe I'll never know! I guess that's not a bad thing.
My week ends today - although tomorrow my little bro and the band are going to participate in a multi-regional Battle of the Bands! If they are in the top four, they get to go to State. How great would that be? Gotta love it! Other than that - and the usual self work that I've been doing - nothing too crazy has happened. My life is pretty calm - for this next hour anyway! I think I may have stretched myself a bit thin this semester - I can handle it - it just isn't much fun! Who said school and work was fun anyway right?! :) Until next time....
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